choni

Chapter 33

The last few days Toni thought about what Nora told him, and she was right. When Toni showes Cheryl, he would have to talk about it. Of course he will explain some part of the story but not all of it. Because most of it is showen through the texts. Toni is just a little nervouse because what if Cheryl will realize that Toni isn't the boy she thought he was. But maybe over the texts the can conect more. He is just really nervouse but he wants to do this, he wants to show Cheryl every part of his life.

Today Toni was at home and he just wanted to be alone. So he decided to play a little 'song he wrote for his grandfather after he passed away. He was really close to him and he wanted to remember everything about him so he started writing. That was the was the first time that Toni wrote something like this. That was the moment he realized that this  helps him to figure out his thought and feelings.  So he sat down and startedto play.

I took the supermarket flowers from the windowsill
I threw the day old tea from the cup
Packed up the photo album Matthew had made
Memories of a life that's been loved
Took the get well soon cards and stuffed animals
Poured the old ginger beer down the sink
Dad always told me, "Don't you cry when you're down"
But mum, there's a tear every time that I blink

Oh I'm in pieces, it's tearing me up, but I know
A heart that's broke is a heart that's been loved

So I'll sing Hallelujah
You were an angel in the shape of my mum
When I fell down you'd be there holding me up
Spread your wings as you go
And when God takes you back we'll say Hallelujah
You're home

Fluffed the pillows, made the beds, stacked the chairs up
Folded your nightgowns neatly in a case
John says he'd drive then put his hand on my cheek
And wiped a tear from the side of my face

I hope that I see the world as you did 'cause I know
A life with love is a life that's been lived

So I'll sing Hallelujah
You were an angel in the shape of my mum
When I fell down you'd be there holding me up
Spread your wings as you go
And when God takes you back we'll say Hallelujah
You're home

Hallelujah
You were an angel in the shape of my mum
You got to see the person I have become
Spread your wings and I know
That when God took you back he said Hallelujah
You're home

The whole time Toni didn't realized that Cheryl stood at his door. He only realized it when he heard someone clear their throat. Toni jumoed a little and turned around to see who it is. As he saw that it was Cheryl is eyes widened. This is not how he wanted Cheryl to find out about his 'hobby'.

''Hey Cher, how long have you been there?''
''Long enough TT, why didn't you tell me you could sing?'' Toni could hear the hurt in Cheryl's voice.
''Well i planned to tell you about it but you kinda found out about it by yourself, why are you here Cher?''
''Well i came here to spent some time with you and then i heard you sing and play the guitar and it sounded so beautiful i was shocked but in a good way, cause you put so much emotion in it it's awesome TT.''
''You really think so?''
''Yeah for who is that song?''
''For my grandfather''
''Oh sorry that i ask''
''No don't worry, i actually want to share this with you''
''You sure?''
''Yes i am sure''
''Okay but when your uncomfortale we stop okay?''
''Okay, so  the song you heard that was a song for my grandfather, i was really close to him. Like almost as close as you and your nana. He was always there for me and then out of no where my mom was called from the hospital. They told her that he was brought to the hosptial because of an heart attack. At that moment it felt like my whole world was breaking. The one person whe understood my was in the hospital. But the worst thing is the doctor already told my mom that when we come there, we should say our goodbyes cause there was no chance that he would wake up. So we drove to the hospital. The whole way a didn't even talk as we were at the hospital i just sat next to the bed and held his hand. I didn't want to believe it that this was it. The rest of the week i stayed most of the time with him. At the day he died i decided to start writing. And that is what you have heard.''
''Omg TT i am so sorry.'' Cheryl hugged him tight and they both stayed like this for some time. Both silently crying. Toni was crying cause he still found it difficult to talk about that time and Cheryl was crying cause she wanted to be there for him.''
''Thankks for listening to me Cher''
''Of course, is there something else you wanted to talk about''
''Yeah, in the hospital you saw Luna well as you know we were together for long time. But things ended badly. Not only did she just used me but she also cheated on me...''
''Omg that bitch!. The next time i see her she will be dead''
''I think that my parents still want to kill her'' Toni chuckled slightly.
''Well then i will help them.'' Cheryl smiled and gave Toni a soft kiss.
''This time i wrote a song were i talked about how i wanted her new boyfriend to cheat on her aswell to use her. I don't know why looking back no it kinda seems dumb...''
''not dumb just the truth. Can i maybe hear it?''
''Yeah of course''