The Spy

Chapter 28

Alex's POV

   Jacob pulled away and rested his head on my forehead once again. We just sat there in the freezing rain. Man this was such a cliche moment. Kissing in the rain. That is such a romantic movie moment. 

    Jacob leaned down for one last peck before pulling away completely. He looked at me one last time before sighing. He ran a hand through his now very wet brown hair, which might I add was very, very hot. 

      "Let's get you inside." Jacob said pushing my wheelchair through the door. Once we got inside he lifted me up out of the wheelchair and carried me bridal style up with stairs. He walked into one of the rooms I slept in when I first came here. He sat me down on at the desk and disappeared out of the room. He came back holding his sweatshirt and a pair of shorts. The shorts were defiantly girl shorts because of how short they are. 

    "Do you need help putting anything on?" He asked but he sounded bored and annoyed. I glared into the darkness. 

   "No." I snapped back. I heard him sigh before leaving the room. I slip my now wet shirt on and slid his sweatshirt on. Then I slid my very soaked pants off and slid on the shorts. I kept my bra and underwear on of course. Once I was all warm and dry a wave of tiredness hit me. I slipped the hood of the sweatshirt over my my head not knowing when Jacob was gonna be back and curled up into a ball. I closed my eyes and soon I drifted off into a nice sleep.

 Jacob's POV

     Why did I kiss her. I am so stupid. I just ruined everything. I was going so good at ignoring her and now I just ruined it all. I stormed downstairs and into the livingroom. Haven and Drew were sitting there talking. Once I walked in all sound stopped.

     "Is she okay?" Haven asked. I nodded and sat down and rubbed the bridge of my nose. I am so stupid for kissing her. I was just in the heat of the moment. I don't like her, do I? No I can't. I can't love her. I am incapable of loving someone. He always told me so.

    "Did you see what happened outside?" I asked them. Slowly they began nodding. I ground and dropped my head in my hands. 

     "What were you thinking Jacob. That if you kissed her she would magically stop coming here and you can forget about her. It doesn't work like that." Haven said. He was right. I didn't know what I was thinking. It was in the heat of the moment. 

     "I don't regret it though. I don't regret kissing her." I said honestly. Haven shrugged in defeat. 

    "You were the one who wanted me to ghost her, this all comes down to your decisions bro." Haven said patting me on the shoulder and walking out of the room and upstairs. Drew soon after doing the same. What am I supposed to do.

    It is true that I like her. Gosh do I like her. I would do anything to make her mine but I can't do that. I am not worthy of having someone as good as her. She deserves better. She deserves someone who will treat her like a princess and wont increase her chances of getting killed. I couldn't live with myself if she got killed. It would all be my fault. 

    Sighing I stood up and walked upstairs. I walked to the room that I let her stay in the day she stayed here. Well days she stayed her. I quietly opened the door. What I saw made my heart hurt. Alex laid on the ground curled up into a ball. That's when it hit me. She couldn't get onto the bed. God I am such a jerk. Making her lay on the floor helpless. 

    I walked over to her sleeping frame and picked her up. She instantly nuzzled into me. I sat her down on the bed, a smile formed on her lips and I pulled the covers on her. She rolled over and got comfier in the bed. Leaning over I placed a lingering kiss on her head before standing up and walking into my office. I called Haven here instantly. He walked in, in his pajama's and he looked tired.

    "What is it. I wanna sleep." He said plopping down in the chair in front of me. I passed him my phone. 

    "Call Kenna and say she is here and safe." I said. He nodded and grabbed the phone. After a few moment of his talking on the phone he pressed the red end button and sat the phone down. A yawn escaped his lips. I rolled my eyes and pointed to the door. With a smile he left the room. 

    After maybe an hour of doing work I gave up. All I could think about was the girl that was laying asleep in the bed next door and those pink plump lips of hers.

    I know it is a mistake for me to care about someone like this and honestly at this point I am just being selfish. I ghosted her because I didn't want to hurt her but ghosting her did hurt her. I don't want anything bad to happen to her. I could do something that could make her hate me, heck she has every reason to hate me right now and she doesn't. I don't know how though. 

    I have never ever cared for someone this deeply before. I mean yeah Kat is my best friend and I know she likes me a lot but I haven't seen her in that way since 9th grade. Now Alex is so different. She makes me want to be better. She makes me want to do good things. Caring for her this deeply honestly scares me. I am scared of what could happen if people found out about her. 

    So many people want to take me and my gang down and Alex would be my weakness. They would find her and take her knowing I would break and become reckless. That is why I have never given any other girl a second chance. As a leader you can't show weakness and Alex would ruin that all for me. 

    I can't have any weaknesses when it comes to gang leaders. We like to play dirty and we don't follow the rules. Taking Alex would defiantly be a part of playing dirty. Alex would be like a golden trophy for them. I know I should't bring her into this but I am too selfish to let her go. 

   Gosh dang it Alexandria Bailey. What are you doing to me.