Indolent Heart (Completed) [R-18]

7 : Lascivious

Lascivious - filled with or showing sexual desire.

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Kim

" I'm sorry for your lost Kim" Madamdaming wika sa akin ni Sabina. Kasama ko ngayon sina Sabina, Grasha at Iza. Yumakap sa akin si Sabina. My baby is just four months inside my tummy pero nawala agad.

" What's your plan, Kim?" Simple lang ang tanong sa akin ni Sabina ngunit ang hirap sagutin.

Kahapon ay ipinaalam ko na sa aking mga magulang ang nangyari. Shannon apologized na tinanggap naman ng aking ina. Ngunit sadyang masakit ang loob ng aking ama dahil sa nangyari. He blamed Shannon for what happened but I knew better.

Halos isang buwan na ang nakakalipas ng makunan ako at isang buwan din akong nangungulila sa namatay kong anak. Masakit man pero kailangan kong tanggapin ang pagkawala ng anak namin.

" Hindi ko na alam. Siguro nga ay masmabuting umalis muna ako sa puder niya." I saw shock in Sabina's face.

" Hindi mo na ba puwedeng ayusin? You lost the baby, Kim but that doesn't mean you get to do the same with Shannon. Puwede naman kayong mag-usap ng maayos diba? Talk to him. " Sabina said. Huminga ako ng malalim. Pakiramdam ko kahit ayusin man namin ang lahat ay wala na akong mahanap pang ibang dahilan para manatili sa kanya dahil ngayon ay hawak ko parin ang sakit na idinulot ng mga ginawa niya. He loves me, and I don't doubt that but his way of loving me is something I cannot even imagine to feel. When he loves, he gives everything.

" Alam mo kung paano magmahal ang isang Jaguar, Sab. You have felt it first hand. Loving a Jaguar was never easy. Kailangan handa kang panindigan ang iyong posisyon. Kailangan handa ka sa lahat ng bagay. And you know me too well to deny him of what he demands of me now. He is a master in bed. Hindi ko naman maikakaila iyon dahil nabuntis niya agad ako. He is an expert in the art of seduction. But he is not that kind when circumstances like these come. He is notorious. He is selfish. He is wicked." Madamdamin kong wika kay Sabina na kanina pa hinehele ang kanilang bagong silang na anak ni Miguel.

" Alam ko. Kaya nga alam ko ang kayang gawin ni Shannon, Kim. Alam ko kung hanggang saan ang kaya niyang isugal para lang sa 'yo. Even without the baby, it's still the same, and that will never change. Kaibigan ko kayong pareho at pareho ko din kayong mahal pero hanggang salita lang naman ang kaya kong ipagkaloob. I'm sure late night talks will do something about this. Talk with him, Kim. Settle the conflict. Learn from me. Don't do the same mistake I did. Do not turn away from the problem but rather, face it. Anytime soon, Shannon will be coming to fetch you and you will talk to him" Sabina said. As much as I want to deny it. Everything that Sabina said was true. Totoo naman kase ang sinabi sa akin ni Sabina. Hindi ko puwedeng takasan ang anumang meron kami ngayon. I'd rather choose to tell him what I feel than turn away from it.

Nauna ng dumating si Miguel. This Jaguar number 8 has been forever in love with my friend. Hindi ko lubos maisip na hanggang ngayon, hindi parin nagbabago si Miguel. The Miguel I've known years ago is still the Miguel I see right now. He's still that dashingly charming yet dangerously ruthless man I once see inside the basketball court.

Sabina instantly blushed when she felt her husband plant a kiss on her cheeks.

" I miss you, Sab" There wasn't even any hint of shyness in his voice.

" Hi daddy! There's daddy" She said to their second child.

Kinuha na ni Miguel ang kanilang anak at hinalikhalikan pa ito. Natutuwa ako habang tinitignan ko si Miguel. He really looks like a real father to his second child. Malayong malayo sa Miguel na nakilala ko ilang taon na ang nakakalipas.