Indolent Heart (Completed) [R-18]

9 : Proclivity

Proclivity - a strong natural liking for something that is usually bad; a tendency to do something that is usually bad

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Kim

Months passed. Years passed. It felt like deja vu. Buo ang mga Jaguars ngayon sa basketball court ng university. Captain is here with Sabina and their children. Kiefer is here with Grasha and their children too. I am with Shannon. Si Kyle naman may kasamang magandang babae na masasabi kong sobrang ganda. She really looks so pretty. Gigs is with Iza. I know that Iza cannot hide anything anymore since we already know the truth.

" Hi, I'm Kim" Pakilala ko sa sarili ko sa magandang babae na kasama ni Kyle.

Ngumiti siya bago siya nagsalita.

" Hi I'm Kyla" She said. I gazed at Kyle who is so much busy talking to Gigs.

Lahat ng mga Jaguars nakaporma pang laro. They already planned to play with the new batch of Jaguars. The reigning Captain of the Jaguars now is a boy named Damon Vince Torrealba. Masasabi kong guwapo rin ang kasalukuyang captain ng mga Jaguars ngayon. He has this eyes that really looks so dangerous yet so calm. Ewan ko ba, it's like I'm seeing Miguel all over again during our college life.

" Oh Kyla, are you perhaps Kyle's girlfriend?" Diretsong tanong ni Grasha kay Kyla. Umiling si Kyla.

" I'm his cousin" Tipid niyang sagot. Napatingin tuloy ako kay Sabina. Her eyes answered my question. But at the back of my mind, I cannot question Kyle. Wala naman kaseng pinipili ang pag-ibig. If he is inlove with his cousin then so be it. There are a lot of reasons to forbid them of their relationship but there are also more reasons to justify its acceptability in the society.

Ilang sandali pa ng lumapit na si Captain kay Sabina. He kissed Sabina on the lips. Ganon din ang ginawa ni Kiefer kay Grasha.

" Miggy, daddy will play. You cheer for daddy okay" Wika ni Miguel kay Miggy na mukhang excited ng panoorin ang kanyang ama na maglaro.

My eyes weren't settled on Miggy nor on Miguel but on Shannon who was looking at my tummy.

" Yes daddy. I will cheer for you. Kasama ko po si Kieffy at yung mga kapatid po niya" Magalang na wika ni Miggy. I so love that kid. I know he will grow up just like Miguel but way too responsible like Sabina.

" Watch me play Kieffy" Untag naman ni Kiefer sa kanyang anak. He also acknowledged his three more children. Sa kanilang mga Jaguars, si Kiefer ang talagang masasabi mong nabiyayaan ng maraming anak. Captain has two children with Sabina. Kiefer has four going five since we are all waiting for Grasha's confirmation of their fifth child. Goodness parang hindi na nagpahinga si Grasha sa kabubuntis. Gigs and Iza, hindi magtatagal, baka bumuo narin sila ng sarili nilang pamilya. How I wish I would be able to do the same with Shannon. But many times, I've tried to get pregnant again. And many times we fail. Kahit araw araw akong magpregnancy test ay wala parin. We never failed to perform intimacy with each other but still no baby yet in my womb.

Lumapit sa akin si Shannon. He gave me that smile I really love seeing from him. He kissed me on the lips. Naramdaman ko ang paghaplos niya sa aking tiyan na para bang gusto niyang ipahiwatig na meron na din siyang sariling anak sa loob ng tiyan ko. He did not speak. He just kissed me on the lips and on my forehead before leaving. Nang makaalis siya ay napahinga ako ng malalim.

Hindi ko namamalayang nakatingin pala sa akin si Grasha.

" Shannon wants a child" Grasha said as a matter of fact.