Indolent Heart (Completed) [R-18]

12 : Naughty

Naughty - behaving badly; relating to or suggesting sex in usually a playful way

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Kim

Days, months have passed still no morning sickness. We were still trying. Hindi nagsasawa si Shannon na iparamdam sa akin na mahal niya ako. The days are counting but it seems that this marriage plays to be lonely. Ang tahimik ng bahay. Ingay lang na nanggagaling sa amin ang maririnig. I go to work, I come home early to cook for dinner. That's my daily routine. Minsan kapag gusto namin pareho, sa labas kami kumakain. We did everything that normal couples do. Kahit dalawa lang kami ay ni minsan hindi ko naramdaman na nabawasan ang pagmamahal sa akin ni Shannon. Kahit tulog ako, ginagapang parin ako ng aking asawa.

" Kim, sasama ka ba sa outing ng grupo." Aya sa akin ni Sabina. Nag-usap kase ang grupo na pupunta sa swimming pool kasama ang mga bata. Grasha will be there. Si Iza daw hindi makakapunta. Ewan ko ba at malala na ang iwasan nila ni Gigs. Alam niya kaseng darating ang grupo. Kyle will be there, Miguel, Kiefer too but Shannon and Gigs won't be there. Si Shannon may business trip kaya hindi makakasama.

" Sige, sabihan ko lang ang mga staff ko na hindi muna ako papasok" Untag ko kay Grasha sa kabilang linya.

Sa Tagaytay ang punta ngayon ng grupo. Nakakabilib dahil alam kong workaholic sina Miguel, Kiefer at Kyle ngunit talagang hindi sila pumasok ngayon para lang sa outing na 'to. Even Kyle, he doesn't have a family yet but still he is with us. Ganon katibay ang pundasyon ng samahan ng mga Jaguars. Iyun nga lang talaga at wala si Gigs at Shannon. Pati si Iza ay wala rin. I don't really know what's the real score between the two but I am sure of something, hindi malabong may namamagitan na sa kanilang dalawa. Iza was very keen to hide it from us for almost four years but Gigs was the only one who managed to turn the tables on and chose to prove to everybody that Iza is a woman.

Ayoko ng makialam pa sa problema nilang dalawa. All I want is to have a stable and happy life for everyone.

I am contented with what I have now. I thought marrying a billionaire would be that hard but it turned out the other way around. I have come to realize the wrong ideas and beliefs I have lived for all my life because I can still have the simple life I wanted even with marrying this man.

Hindi ako gusto ng pamilya niya. I get it. But that won't stop me from loving him still. Ipaglalaban ko ang pagmamahal ko para sa kanya hanggang sa makakaya ko. I won't give up until I can.

I will stay in love with him and fight for him.

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Nasa may veranda kami ng habang pinapanood namin ang mga bata na naglalaro sa swimming pool. Miguel and Kiefer were also in the swimming pool kasama sina Miggy. Ang saya nilang tignan. I can't believe I am seeing two of those bad boy Jaguars happily married and have kids. Nakakaselos dahil sila nabiyayaan ng maraming anak. Lalo na si Grasha.

" Bakit hindi sumama si Shannon, Kim" Tanong sa akin ni Grasha.

Kagabi ay nagpaalam sa akin si Shannon. He needs to go to the States for a business matter. Akala ko ay isang araw lang siya dun pero tumawag siya sa akin kanina lang na mag-eextend daw siya dun ng tatlong araw.

" May business meeting siya sa ibang bansa" Tipid kong sagot sa kanya. Napatango si Sabina.

" Ganon ba. Nakakapanibago lang dahil kahit naman may lakad iyun kapag may lakad ang grupo, darating at darating siya. Well, I guess that was very important for him not to be with us now" Untag ni Grasha. Totoo ang sinabi ni Grasha. Shannonnever failed to miss a vacation with the Jaguars. I wanna ask him why but I thought that why would I? It's not as if I am doubting on something I'm not even certain of.