I can't do it anymore.
I can't climb this mountain any more
when all I achieve sends me tumbling
back to the base. I'm left wondering why
I ever started the trek up the hill that gets
steeper with each trial and challenge.
I can't do it anymore.
You never noticed how distracted I was
before and so I'm wondering how I can
hide it no more. Is it because I'm growing
older, but don't they say with age comes
experience. I'm not sure anymore.
I can't do it anymore.
The thunderstorm is far to heavy;
The thunder too deafening and the lightening
rips my soul in half splintering my hopes and
deep in my bones my flaws shine clear as
I know it's time they started to show.
I can't do it anymore.
My roar for help is deafening. How can you
hear me but not help me differently, you try
but you don't realise the heartache doen't
get any easier;it can only get worse and
anything you say will fly over my head.
I can't do it anymore.
My ears hear you and my heart crys for aid
but my head thinks differently. It shows me
the bad instead of good. I know all you say
with your ever lasting kindness will never
solve my ongoing problem.
I can' t do it anymore.
As I hide behind my unrealistic facade
I notice the mistakes and my heart begins
to race, my stomach begins to churn and I
have the deep realisation within that I'm the
one who caused the problem to myself.
I can't do it anymore.
I curse myself for the pain I've caused to
myself and because of this the hurt I've
caused to you and I hate myself for it.
Not in my head anymore but in the
deepest depths of my beating heart.
