I try in desperation to avoid you
To stop myself looking into
Those hypnotic blue eyes.
Your penatrating stare cuts
through me jolting me from
my sense to doom.
You make me think of
my weaknesses. My lack of
confidence, my shyness.
The sniggers in the corridor,
The smirk on your face
Your high pitched laughter.
The pushing and pulling
Shouting and cursing.
What have I ever done to you?
Why can't you just leave me
alone and stop your hatred
because very soon I'm going to break.
My heart cannot take much more
Of hurt and the ache that grows
stronger for someone to care.
No one seems to understand
My problems or me never mind
the thoughts encircling my mind.
The fear never leaves you
Regardless what happens,
Regardless who says "It's Ok"
Nothing solves the problem
No one ever will.
I gave up asking for help
A long time ago
Because no one ever listens
No one takes heed
Of my worries or fears
The tales I tell
They say "It can't be that bad"
But it is, and I'm the one who
feels it. Feels the blows come
down upon me with a crash.
Feels the words icy cold
That mean far more
Than letters on paper.
I feel those words
I feel them break my heart
Break my soul.
