"How Can I End This Suffer" [M.Yng.BTS]

A lonely butterfly (8)

"The Voice who control and will be"

~Yoongi P.O.V~

Tears where falling on my rosy cheeks. Heard all the mean stuff makes me feel worthless around them and without them. I want to run in this world but....I can't.

I wipe off my tears and, open the door.

"Oh Yoo-.... What are you doing...?"

I was grabbing my stuff and putting it in my bag. All eyes are on me, making me so small and want tear up but can't, not around around them even more.

"The Doctor said I should head back home" I said with an annoyed voice towards them and glare them, making them confuse.

"Oh OK, we understand we can continue our practice without you so it's OK and Take care of yourself OK don't be a stubborn child" Jin said while laughing along with other members, it looks like they don't care for me anymore, they don't care if I'm here or not, and I know that they will never care for me until the end of the day.

I bit my lips and said my goodbye, wave at them but they already turned when I said my goodbye making my thoughts of how they will never care for me in the future. I closed the door and walked towards the front exit of the building, I got on of one of the car and drove off to go back at the dorm.

I was truly an a stupid and worthless member after all, even my members notice it.

I want it, I really want it so badly.

"You want it so badly?"

"You came back!?"

"Well duh idiot, am always will be there for you"

"You will always be there for ME!?"

"Hmpp am better than your members, they don't love you from the very first start, they hated you, they don't even fucking care about you"

I was silence , don't know what to say, but all I its all true. When the times come, they will surely leave me and hurt me in the end.

"You want to satisfy yourself I'mma right?"

"Y-yeah?"

"Great I have great plans for you"

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~Author P.O.V~

Yoongi was inside of his own bathroom and was sitting on the toilet lid. He was holding a razor that was belong to his hyung, don't know what to do with it until he wait the command of the voice inside his head.

"Cut many times as you want"

"O-ok"

Yoongi obey to what the voice said to him, he cutted himself many times until there's no space to cut. It was sight of a pleasure to Yoongi. Blood dripping from the floor making a pool of blood. After he cutted himself, he stood up, washed his cuts, hissing at the pain and, He go out in his bathroom and headed to his bed to nap for a sec.

It was already 4:30 in the afternoon, Yoongi was still napping at the time, until someone open the door but fortunately it didnt wake him up from his nap and continue on it.

It was his members, they were laughing chit- chat at each other, didn't know that Yoongi was napping in his room. The members got in their own room and change their clothes from all the sweats. All of them, excluding Yoongi, was gathered at the living room except Jin, who is making dinner for the younger ones.

After Jin cooked all the food, he placed all of them at the dinner table and call them to eat. They're laughing and talking to each other while eating their food, forgetting Yoongi, who didn't eat dinner yet.

~Meanwhile~

~Yoongi P.O.V~

I was waking up at my rest or sleep...I don't know and I don't care. I seat up at the side of the bed and rubbing my dozy eyes. I stood up but feeling a bit of tired from my sleep or rest, until I smell something delicious coming in from the kitchen. Are all of them eating?, better see if they are. I open the door and close it again. I quietly walk through the hallway and go down the stairs. Hearing laughter and chattering. Until I hide in the corner to see them....

Eating without me. It breaks my heart without me in he frame, they all look happy and enjoying their time without me. So.... I already knew the truth.

The time will be soon.

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