"How Can I End This Suffer" [M.Yng.BTS]

Problem (14)

           "He really need some help"

*In the BTS dorm*

~Namjoon P.O.V~

I opened the door while carrying Yoongi in a bridal way. He look so tired, he's eye bag is getting bigger and bigger (sorry I dont how ti explain it), I fail as a leader to him, I didnt notice until I saw his cuts.

"Namjoon?" Jin said from the kitchen, cooking our dinner.

"Hey Hyung"

"Go to his room and place him on his bed first, he look so tired from all the work he did in his studio" Jin was worried about how Yoongi is looking, he was shaking and he have a fever as well.

I nodded and go to his room and place him on his bed. I cover him up with his blacket and place a kiss on his forehead. Hot, it was hot, he have a fever. How much work do you need to do, to finally satisfied you?

He worked hard of all the members, but he didnt even see it with his own eyes. I notice he was shaking even more, then I look at the window and it was open, I close it and got back to my Hyung, he's breathing ok, thats glad, but he have to eat.

"Guys! Dinner is ready!" Jin-Hyung shouted from the kitchen, hearing the members one by one opening their doors and heading to the kitchen. Well I have to go Yoongi-hyung, I'll eat first, ready your food, and then I'll wake you up to eat your food.

*sign* I sign, I was so frustrated that I didnt notice Hosoek-hyung is leaning at the wall next to Yoongi's door room outside.

"Is he ok?" He ask while looking down on the floor. He was in deep thoughts, many was happening in our schedule right now, and the comeback is near, he was nervous that Yoongi will have a fever or panick attack when they doing their perfomance or anything like that.

"He's ok hyung, he just have a slight fever, that's all, dont worry" We both walk together in the hallway.

"I'm just so nervous and worry about him, Namjoon" We both arrived at the kitchen and everyone eyes was on us. We both sat down, and Jin placed all the food one by one infront of us.

"I got something to tell about" I said, and everyone look up from their food.

"Is it about Yoongi, Namjoon-ah?" Jin exclaim, he was so worried about his dongsaeng's state.

"I saw him....." (Namjoon)

"Saw him what, Namjoon?" (Jin)

I breath out and ready to say to what I saw back at the building.

"I saw him.....I saw him cutting himself" (Namjoon)

Taehyung dropped his utensils because of how shock from what I said about Yoongi's cutting himself.

"What!?....There's no way that Yoongi-hyung will do that!?" (Taehyung)

"Dont shout Taehyung, you might wake Yoongi up" (Jimin)

"He have a slight fever and he was also shaking, but dont worry-" (Namjoon)

"How can't we be not so worry, that Yoongi-hyung is cutting himself?!" (Jungkook)

"Dont worry, I got this, after I eat my food, I'll bring him some food and medicine foe his fever" (Namjoon)

"Let just eat our dinner and let the problem slide for a moment, we have photoshoot tomorrow" (Jin)

Everyone nodded and eat their food. It was silent, silently eating their food, there's only a sound of their utensils when it touch their plate or their are driking their juice or water or even a banana milk.

Namjoon finished first, and walking down the hallway while bringing his hyung's medicine, food and also a water. He quitely open the door, finding Yoongi who is looking up.

"Hey Hyung" Yoongi snap from his thought and look at Namjoon, seing Namjoon holding a tray with food and wateron it, and also a medicine in his hand.

"Eat up hyung, we have photoshoot tomorrow."

"Do you ever wondered why you born in this hellish world, Namjoon-ah?"

"What?"

"I was in my own world, and thinking why I was born in this world. I dont understand Namjoon."

"What are you saying Hyung?"

"I was born in this world, because maybe to be a foolish and shameful around the people. I was in the wrong, and you all were in the right. I'am the useless one, I'am the cry baby, I'am the pathetic one, I'am the most lazy one, I'am not working that hard for the group, I'am the one who is bringing everyone down-

"Hyung-

"I'am the ugly one, I'am the most untalented member, I'am the one who easily give up on everything, Maybe I was born in this world, because until the end of the day, everyone that I love, will leave m-

"HYUNG!" Yoongi snap back into reality and in was in tears, he's cat eyes is covered with is own tears. Namjoon pull him to hug him, his hyung was shaking, and notice that his shirt got wet cause of the tears, but he didnt care about the tears that wet his shirt.

"All you said was not TRUE, hyung. You worked hard than all of us, you were always there for us if we needed help. So please, dont think about that anymore, hyung, please?" And with that, Namjoon smile, because after he said all the stuff, his hyung was sleeping. He place Yoongi down and cover him up. He place a kiss on his hyung's forehead, and left the room.

*sign* I forgot that he have some food that he have to eat and take his medicine. Stupid namjoon, stupid.

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Hai😭