They Don't Know About Us

4

*Another reminder that you are never as alone as you feel. You are loved, valid, and worthy. If you're struggling with finding who you are, it will get better. This chapter continues to show Waverly's journey. Yours may be similar, or completely different. Everyone's journies are different and valid. Enjoy this chapter x*

While walking back to her house with Carmilla and Laura, Waverly really tried to not think about the fact that she had told them she liked girls. She wanted to completely forget that entire conversation. But she knew she couldn't. It's hard to face something like this. Waverly had never thought about actually facing what she was feeling for Nicole. She thought if she kept it in her head, the feelings would just go away. Clearly, that wasn't working. Her feelings just began to build up inside of her, and now they had burst and she couldn't take back anything she had said. Waverly had admitted a secret. Something she hated doing. She appreciated her friends and their support, but she didn't want to admit that she needed it. The brunette was deep in thought, and she kicked a rock on the ground with her converse, catching Carmilla's attention.

"Waverly...don't feel like you have to label yourself. You don't need to put that much pressure on yourself." Carmilla said carefully, not wanting to make Waverly even more upset.

"I'm not gay..." Waverly's lips trembled. Laura looked at Carmilla, sadness in her eyes. She knew that questioning your sexuality was a really hard experience. Coming to terms with yourself, and accepting yourself, can be hard.

"It's okay to like Nicole." Laura stopped walking and grabbed Waverly's arm, bringing the girl to a stop.

"No. No it's not." Waverly took a shaky breath and avoided looking Laura in the eyes.

"Why isn't it?" Laura asked.

"Because I don't want to lose people I care about because of it. What would Wynonna s ay? What would everyone at school say? And Nicole would laugh in my face. She'd never like me." Waverly had tears forming in her eyes again.

"Waverly, Wynonna loves you. Nothing will ever change that. But you don't have to tell anyone. Whenever you feel ready you can. You just need to take some time to accept yourself. Talking about it with us will help." Carmilla explained, grabbing Waverly's hand and squeezing it slightly. The girls began walking again, and Waverly was thinking about what Carmilla said. Maybe it would help to talk to them about it?

"You won't ever tell Nicole right?" Waverly wanted reassurance.

"Of course not. We're just here for you in whatever ways you need." Laura promised.

"Can you guys stay at my house tonight?" Waverly asked. Even though it was a school night, she knew Wynonna was staying at her best friend Rosita's house. She really didn't want to be alone tonight.

"I can't, only because I have to help my parents with something tonight. I'm sorry Waves." Carmilla frowned.

"I can, we'll watch horror movies and eat lots of popcorn okay?" Laura reassured her best friend. Waverly smiled softly.

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Laura was in Waverly's room while Waverly went to go shower. It broke her heart to see Waverly so broken. She really couldn't do much to make her feel better except just be there to listen, and encourage her to take the time to accept who she was. She also knew that one person that could cheer Waverly up instantly would be Nicole. Laura decided to text Nicole, being sure not to reveal anything that Waverly had admitted.

Nicole was in her room, watching Orange is the New Black on her laptop when she felt her phone vibrate.

Laura: Hey Haught stuff...do you think you could text Waverly? She's had a really rough night...can't explain. But I think she'd appreciate someone getting her mind off of it, and I feel like you can help.