Road to The Academy (EDITING)

Chapter 10: Alone

The Same Night

*Luís*

     Ben and I have never fought this bad. I had no idea his feelings for Bri were so intense. He left with Mike a few hours ago, I guess they're spending the night at Briana's. All I've been able to do since he left, was sit in silence. I was alone in my room staring at the ceiling, attempting to fall asleep. I was open and honest with Ben. I told him what happened and he didn't take it well at all. I love him so much and I hope he forgives me for this. I know what I did was wrong. I know that I should've spoken up for them. I know I gave in to peer pressure. I know that I have to deal with the consequences of my actions. I just hope he sees that I'm trying. I apologized to Bri and the other girls for my part. We have to get back to normal, I hate all this drama between us. I should've never gotten involved...
     Right now, I'm really questioning myself. Why did I give in to them? Ben and I are so close, how come he couldn't tell me how he felt about Briana? We talk about girls all the time, why was she so different? I know her and I don't see eye to eye all the time but he knows he can talk to me about anything, right? We're twins, we know everything about each other. Since Bri and I don't have anything in common besides hockey. At first, it was annoying that she had to join my team. The one thing I had to myself, in a way was taken from me. But, as we grew up, it didn't bother me as much. On the other hand, when it comes to girls, I can't say much because I haven't been too honest with Ben, myself. I've been talking to someone for about a month now and I think I'm ready to bring her around the family. She understands me and we have a lot in common. She's new to Dover, so no one really knows her. And that's great in this town. It's so small, every one knows everything about every one. I think Ben will like her, same with Mike. I know Ben won't judge me, that's why this is so hard for me. I wonder why Ben felt like he had to hide that from me? Did he think I would judge him? Maybe even tell her how he felt? I just don't get it. This whole thing is making me exhausted, but I can't sleep. I closed my eyes anyway. Maybe everything will be better tomorrow.

*Briana*

     I got to my room and relaxed into my bed. What just happened tonight? Did I really just tell Ben.. my best friend since I was five.. that I have feelings for him and AGREE to a DATE?! I knew I needed to write this out. My journal has always been my place to truly express my feelings and creativity. I bring it almost everywhere with me, just in case that I decide to write. Ever since our parents left, it's been the easiest way for me to cope with everything. I keep it private and only take it out if I'm alone. Since some subjects are sensitive, it's been the easiest for me to communicate with Carlito by using Cat as our go between. I know things are really hard on Carlito especially since he didn't have a 'normal' childhood. He was taking care of me most of the time.. When our parents had me, my mom took care of a lot for me. It still crosses my mind, about why she left. Maybe she was tired of being a mom, but that's no excuse to leave your kids alone and not teach them anything. The only thing they left us was our house. At least they gave us something positive.
     Anyway, I grabbed my journal and let my emotions flow to the pages. It was nerve wracking, even thinking about asking Carlito if I can go on this date with Ben. Especially being alone and out at night most likely. I finished my pages quickly, feeling myself getting sleepy. I tossed my journal in my nightstand drawer and climbed into bed. Laying there,I just relaxed into my blankets and huge pillow, closing my eyes and allowing my thoughts took over. I was happy that  that Ben and I finally were able to talk about how we felt. Even though it was short lived, it was necessary. I was excited that he asked me on a date. I hope that Carlito lets us go. What if he says no? What if he says I can't date Ben? Or worse, what if he says I can't be friends with Ben at all?

My heart began to race and my eyes flew open. Oh my god, what did I get myself into?

*Ben*