Unfamiliar Feelings - Jastin

Chapter Fifteen

Chapter 15
Jason McCann

You ever felt that pain where even though you didn't go out with a person, you guys broke up?

I'm feeling that at the moment.

I feel sad and lonely. technically im still married but Aubrey isn't here and she's probably still cheating on me.

Derek has been here every single day for the past week. Justin didn't even notice a change in me. I mean, he's special. I wouldn't expect him too but, we haven't kissed, I haven't touched him, called him baby, nothing. he didn't even ask.

maybe he is better off with Derek. If that porn take leaks my career is over.

"Daddy daddy daddy daddy daddy" Justin ran towards me.

"Yes yes yes yes yes" I replied.

"Look at what I made you" Justin handed me a picture that said "The Best Dabdy in the Whole Wide WoLrd"

"aw this is so beautiful, I'm going to hang it up" I smiled. Justin ran to my embrace "Thank you daddy" he giggled. I rubbed his back and sighed. I pulled away and began to take out the groceries I bought.

"Daddy?"

"Yes justin"

"can i have a kiss" he asked. As much as I wanted to grab his cheeks and kissed his soft lips, I have him a gentle kiss on the forehead. He look confused and he followed me to fridge.

"n-no I meant on the lips" he pouted.

I kissed my lips and looked at him. "excuse me?"

"n-nothing daddy" he stammered before running upstairs. I should've just kissed him. I pinched the bridge of my nose. I can't be mad at myself, Justin made his decision. I can't be mad. He's with Derek.

He's with Derek

He's with Derek

Derek Howard

This has been the greatest week of my life. I've been with Justin all week! he's such a sweetheart, and he's been so intimate lately too. We haven't had sex or anything but we've done other stuff...

But besides that, we got to go to the movies, I took him to some museum, we went on a picnic, the only reason I didn't take him out today was because Micheal had an emergency.

"Derek dude thank god your here" Micheal opened his front door.

"Why what's up?" I asked him.

"You know that girl I really really like?"

"Anaya right?"

"Yes, I'm taking her out and I'm nervous and I told her we can go on a double date, can you please take Justin please"

"Time with my best friend and boyfriend? Of course" I grabbed my phone to call him. "Just give me a second"

After three rings the phone picked up. "Justin?"

"D-der?" Justin sniffled.

"What's wrong babe?" I asked nervously.

"N-nothing"

"Justin it's me, you can tell me anything"

"I-I think d-daddy hates me because o-of you" He stammered. I sighed over the phone. I can't believe McCann.

"of course he doesn't hate you baby"

"so why I-is he a-acting so different" he cried.

"he probably misses your mom Justin" I spoke. "Why don't I take you out, me and you and Micheal and his girlfriend. It's a double date"

"N-no"

"Why not?" I frowned. "Didn't we have fun this week?"

"Y-yes but I wanna stay home"

I groaned "okay"

"bye bye der" justin said before hanging up.

"Sorry Micheal, i can't get Justin out the house"

"Dude please- her friend! Mariah! Go with her please dude"

"Are you fucking crazy, I'm gonna marry this boy there's no way I'm cheating on him"

"She's gay dude" Micheal said.

"Oh, okay. But no pictures, I don't need my Justin getting the wrong idea"

"Deal" Micheal hugged me while I rolled my eyes.

Jason McCann

As I walked across the hall I heard sniffling in Justin's room. Is he crying?

I peaked my head in Justin's room to see his face covered in a pillow.

"Justin?" He looked up snot dripping from his nose with puffy red eyes.

"Whats wrong Jay?" I asked grabbing a tissue for him. He sat up and blew his nose not making any eye contact with me. I sat next to him rubbing his back.

"Can you tell me what's wrong?"

His big brown eyes stared into mine. Oh how I love them.

Stop Jason, Step-Father mode

He made a his choice

"Y-you don't love me a-anymore" he cried.

"Justin that's crazy. I love you more than anything in this world...your my favorite person"

"t-then why can't y-you kiss me anymore, o-or I can't sleep in y-your bed, o-or you won't touch me, a-and you don't c-call me nicknames a-anymore" i sighed.

I guess he did notice

"Justin, your with Derek. you made your choice. im your step father at the end of the day...it was ridiculous that I even considered this...maybe one day, but your young and happy with Derek and that's all I ever wanted was for you to be happy" I lied, if Justin didn't choose Derek we could be together forever, start a new life, but a man can dream.

"s-so you still l-love me?" Justin sniffed

"more than anything" I assured.

"O-okay"

"How about we go out to eat? then the movies? I have the day off" Justin's face lit up with a smile.

"Okay!" He exclaimed

I chucked as he searched his closet for clothes. One day..