Leaving This Behind

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Leighton’s POV:

          Grass tickled my bare feet as I walked aimlessly in front of the Taylor house. I was tired of being stuck in the house doing nothing. I was tired of everyone’s pitying looks. I should have never told Aaron about Jaden last night.

          I layed down and stared up at the bright blue sky. I needed time alone. Time to think about everything. I mentally made a list of the things I needed to think about.

1.)   Kaidyn.

2.)   Jaden.

3.)   Aaron.

4.)   My parents.

I started on my list.

Number one: Kaidyn. He wants me to forgive him. He wants to act like he didn’t ruin my life. How am I supposed to forgive him? He made fun of me. He told all of my personal secrets. He made my life miserable for so long. What makes him even think he has a right to be forgiven?! Because he doesn’t. I’m sick and fucking tired of him walking all over me. I’m tired of him acting like what he did was no big deal. I hate him with a burning passion.

Number two: Jaden. I don’t even know what to think about what happened. He hit me hard enough to break my rib! I honestly thought he was a good friend. I never thought he was even capable of doing something like that. He acted like he cared about me… The fact that he never did hurt more than the punches he threw…

Number three: Aaron. Aaron… I don’t LIKE him… Do I? I need to figure it out… I get butterflies around him, my heart races, and I blush… I have a crush on Aaron Taylor, don’t I? Oh, no…

Number four: my parents. They call about once every two weeks. I haven’t seen them since I moved here. They didn’t even come to the hospital. They “couldn’t take off work.” Austin came, though. I understand they’re busy… I just really, really miss them and I figured they’d come see me by now. I kind of feel like they don’t care anymore. Their life must be much simpler now. They don’t have a kid to take care of now. I may just be overreacting… It just really hurts.

          “Hi, there.” Jordyn plopped down beside me.

          “Hey.” I smiled slightly at her.

          “Leighton, I’m so sorry for not noticing you were hurting. I should have been there for you.” Jordyn’s voice was sincere.

          “Hey, it isn’t your fault! The Jaden thing would have happened no matter how much you were there for me. The… other thing would have, too. You had no control over it. It’s okay.” I told her.

She smiled softly at me and laced her fingers through mine. We stayed like that, just staring up at the clouds in a comfortable silence.

A/N… Hello, everyone. :D This chapter isn’t very important, but I was missing Jordyn so I stuck a ‘Jordyn/Leighton Chapter’ in there. OH! I’m gonna start doing a quote and song for each chapter.  :)

Quote: “At your age, you're gonna be having a lot of urges. You're going to want to take off your clothes and touch each other. But if you do touch each other, you will get chlamydia and die.” ~Coach Carr ‘Mean Girls’

Song: ‘Ronan’ by Taylor Swift… It has absolutely nothing to do with this chapter, but it is an amazing song! <3 It’s over theeereee ~~~> :) It makes my cry everytime...