Babysitter~h.s.

t w e n t y - s e v e n | Harry&Allana

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I heard someone knocking on the door repeatedly. I became worried if it was a robber or someone from George's group. I walked up and opened the door. To my surprise, it was Allana. But she was soaking wet and shivering. She must've commuted her way back home.

"Oh sh*t Allana!" I said as I pulled her inside and got my jacket from the rack and wrapped it around her and at the same time embraced her into a hug. Never cared if I get soaked, but the important thing here is for her to feel safe in my arms.

"What happened to you? Why are you soaking wet again?" I asked as I pulled her down on the couch beside me.

"I-I-I'm s-sorry" was all she could say since the it was windy at the same time raining. I hugged her tight just for me to warm her up. I felt bad for seeing her this way.

"Why didn't you call me? I should've picked you up" she didn't respond, but instead, continued to shiver as I continued to hug her. Poor girl. What's happening to her. I then spoke since she is unable to speak due to her condition right now. "How about you get cleaned up first, I'll fix us up with hot drinks and we can talk it over here in the living room?"

She then looked at me and I swear she nodded. I helped her stand up and went upstairs. Continuing to wrap my arms around her. I helped her get to her room and as she started to prepare herself for a hot bath, to cool her down, I closed the windows since it's still windy outside.

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A

"Allana, please, why won't you let me beat the f*cking sh*t out of him? This is too much" he said as he stood up from the couch as I remained in my seat.

After I took a hot bath, I changed and went downstairs. Harry was in the kitchen and told me to sit on the couch. I then saw he made us both hot chocolate. I liked it. It was something that was simple and warm. We started enjoying the beverage as I started to explain what happened.

"That's not very necessary to do" I tried reasoning with him.

"You got embarrassed in front of everyone. I want to do something for you to not experience that again." he answered back.

"Violence is not the answer. And besides it's not going to work if you want to get back at them for humiliating me" I said as I pulled him to sit down beside me again.

"I feel as though you've experienced this before?" his face started to soften. I kept my head down just to process what was going to happen—am going to tell Harry about my past.

It was silent for awhile as I tried not to cry and would explain it clearly to him. I inhaled and exhaled before speaking.

"About 2 years ago, I had a boyfriend who was like Josh. Popular, handsome, captain of the varsity team. He was the total package" I started off with the story. I was still feeling okay since nothing happened yet between us. I then continued. "We have been dating for almost a year. One day, I also found out that the relationship was a ruse out of a dare from a party wherein we met."

I gulped the saliva in my throat before speaking. "One of his friends found out that he was dating an outsider like me. Someone who was not on top of the society pyramid" it hadn't changed since then. It was clear to anyone of us that anyone can date anyone. "When his friends found out about our relationship, of course he asked forgiveness from me because he wanted our relationship to last, they started to gang up on him"

The ranking of stereotypes in high school were taken very seriously. It's always been like that ever since and having relationships with the same level of popularity or personality was always followed since it increases your reputation. It made us realized that there was no place for anyone with people who are on top of the popular chain.

"He tried to reason with them that I was special. That I was different from anyone. Although, physical appearance was much more focused here as well as one's personhood" I then started to feel myself about to break down.

"One day, I found out that....h-he passed a-away" I felt myself trying to calm myself down before releasing much emotion towards him. "They found his body in an alley near the school. It turned out that his friends beated him to death"

"I'm sorry to hear that Allana" he put a hand on my shoulder as I felt one tear escape my right eye then followed by another tear front left eye.

"I was put in a not so prestigious school, but it was known to be the number 5 or number 6 of the schools who offers good quality education. Sometimes we are seen on the news and that builts up the school's reputation." I explained to him as I continued with the story. "In relation to that, we were featured on TV about the incident. Many parents were worried about their child's safety. Because of that, we were never one of the top choices for high school"

I breathed in once more and spoke. "People from school started hating on me during that time. They kept telling me how it was my fault that their star player was gone. They even blamed our relationship. They even said that I was the one who changed him into a different person. Basically saying, I was at fault with this whole situation" it never ocurred to me how painful it still felt whenever I recall these moments. I keep thinking about them and him. Sometimes I pretend it didn't happen—but it did.

"Now, since the whole Josh Manky incident, everyone still started to judge me at the same time teasing me in an insulting way" I started bawling my tears out. It felt good to release these kinds of feelings, but it felt unhealthy because I kept this amount of pain for 3 1/2 years now. I then continued.

"I keep reminiscing the same thing over and over again. Sometimes I keep dreaming about it." I couldn't escape the reality behind it. That instead of ignoring them, I do the opposite. "Because of that, I learned that I will never find someone to love me for me because if you love someone, you're willing to commit your emotions to that person which is very risky and as I see it, no one would take the risk for me"

heyyyyy double update lol sorry if this chapter was confusing, but still enjoy it :)