Babysitting the bad boys baby sister

23. Desperate

I walked all the way to Lucian's house which was no easy task. It probably took me 2 hours but I couldn't feel my legs, I couldn't feel anything.

When I approached the obnoxiously big house I realized that the door was of course locked. I found a window and easily opened it. I saw that it was the window to Lucian's room. I climbed in carefully trying to not set off an alarm or something. I walked to the room I was staying in and grabbed my stuff. I stuffed it into my big bag and picked up my picture. The frame was silver and shiny. I gently touched the glass looking at the smiling faces. Before thinking I threw it against the wall as I felt hot tears run down my cheeks. Bullshit.

This was all bullshit. All of it.

I quickly made my way back to Lucian's room. I looked around and saw the mess it had become. Clothes were thrown around. There was a picture sitting on his desk, it was of two young boys. I assume one of them is a younger Lucian, the piercing eyes gave it away. I climbed out of the window and slammed it shut. I lugged my stuff back to the old apartment. I sat on the front steps of the building and watched the cars drive through the narrow streets. I watched mothers push their babies in strollers and people jog. I put my headphones on to try and block out the world. I leaned again the cold stone and closed my eyes. The cold was bitter but luckily it was sunny.

I sat there with my eyes closed until I was awoken by someone pulling me to my feet.

"What the-" I felt someone drag me as I opened my eyes.

"Quiet." It was Jay. Damn I was definitely in trouble. What if he tells my mom? And she tells my dad? I am so screwed. How stupid of me to just throw away everything, I let my anger get the best of me.

Jay has a tight grip on me as he dragged me. I thought about screaming but who would care?

I stayed silent as we climbed the stairs to what I'm assuming is Jays apartment. He opened the door and threw me inside and slammed the door. I could feel myself tremble in fear. All my adrenaline had worn off, I have nothing left to give.

"I'm so sorry Jay, I really don't know what happened I'm not like this". I told him but he silenced me as he grabbed an ice pack from a freezer.

"Let me talk." He growled as he winced while moving.

"Sit." He said slightly nicer as he motioned to a dark, old couch. I hesitated but knew there was no reason to fight, he would probably kill me.

"I'm going to give you an ultimatum." He said as he stood in front of me, towering over me.

"What?" I asked. Why wasn't he angry anymore. I mean I did beat him up in front of the school.

"You can either join our gang or I'll send you to your mom and your father can kill you, just like he's been trying to do all along." He says in a low voice. I can't believe that only months ago I thought he was cute.

"You wouldn't." I said and he smiled at me.

"I think we both know...I would." He said.

"And another thing, no talking to Lucian, no babysitting." He said with a humor-less laugh.

"I need a job how else will I pay for the apartment or college?" I ask him. This was all insane but I didn't want to die, I was desperate.

"Your living here with the rest of us and you don't need to go to college that's all bullshit." He says. I couldn't believe all that was happening right now.

"No- Columbia I have to go to Columbia that's my dream." I told him in desperation. I didn't expect him to care and of course he didn't.

"Maybe you should of thought about your dream before you kicked the shit of me." He growled and sat down next to me.

"So make your decision." He told me as the tears began to roll down my cheeks again.

"I can't go back." I cried out and he nodded.

"Exactly, so get your stuff unpacked. You can sleep on the couch." He said and I felt the life drain out of my completely. I was under Jay's control now. If I tried to run away he would for sure tell me mom and my dad would find out and then, then I would actually be dead.

I had no one now. Absolutely no one. Lucian hates me, my mom abandoned me, my dad wants me dead, Jay is cruel and is only "helping" me because my mom payed him. God I really hoped no one had posted about the fight or gotten the school involved. I really need to graduate.

"Everyone will be home soon." Jay told me as he tosses a water bottle at me which I caught.

"Why are you doing this?" I asked him.

"I have my reasons." He said angrily. That didn't ease my anxiety at all.

"Who lives here?" I asked him and he stared at me with suspicion.

"4 other guys in the gang, Luke, Adam, James and Felix." He told me. You have got to be kidding me. I am stuck here in an apartment with 5 guys. This is actually a nightmare, my whole life has become a nightmare. I swallowed my fear as the door opened. I pulled my knees to my chest as 4 teenagers walked into the room.

I saw Jay's lips moving but I couldn't here anything, I was frozen in time.

"We are going out." Jay said as the boys grabbed their coats from a closet.

"And don't think about trying to leave, the door is locked and we are on the 5th story." He told me.

I subconsciously let my eyes wander to the window. There was no way out, I couldn't possibly escape.

There was a roof over my head and that's how I knew how desperate I was. I was thankful there was a roof over my head even if that meant I was a prisoner.