lost; ethma

seventeen

song:
cigarettes- amir obe

emma

i open my eyes and see that i'm surrounded by darkness. i can make a few things out, but mostly i know that i'm in a bed.

in a room that i don't recognize.

my head is foggy and i cant seem to think straight. i'm obviously still drunk, but my memory is so shot that i cant recall what got me here.

where am i? not in my room, or olivia's or amanda's. definitely not grayson's.

then i feel movement coming from my left side. a person. a heavy arm plops onto my stomach, and not before long, i realize i'm naked.

then i hear three words circling around my mind from earlier. three distinctive words coming from two voices.

"it's just sex," i say.

"it's just sex."

—

12 hours earlier

i walk in my apartment after a long day at work and a quick workout at the gym. olivia and amanda are cuddled up in a blanket watching some movie.

"wow," i giggle. "lazy day i see."

"shut up! i've been working all week and this just so happens to be my one day off," olivia says.

"yeah! i'm off too," amanda exclaims.

"can i join?" i ask.

"sure, but we're about to go across the hall," olivia says plainly.

"why?" i ask curiously.

"ethan's having this big party. he made friends in the apartment building apparently. so they're all coming, including us. it's friday, so i don't see why not," amanda chimes in. "well, obviously olivia's going. she's on ethan's a-list of friends. i'm just tagging along."

"olivia being all buddy buddy with ethan," i say. "never expected that one."

"you jealous?" olivia teases.

it was just a joke, but something about that comment churns my insides. i don't care if olivia and ethan are friends. i don't.

"hahaha," i joke. "so funny."

olivia grins. "you coming with us tonight?"

"i probably shouldn't..."

"who gives a damn!" she says. "grayson won't be there. you'll be fine if you have to spend a couple of hours in ethan's apartment."

i hesitate.

"it'll be funnnnn!" amanda whines.

somehow, i end up agreeing to go to ethan's. they said there would be a lot of people, so hopefully i'm not restricted to only hanging out with him.

we eventually head to my room to get ready. i am wearing this checkered mini skirt with a black halter top. my hair is down and straightened and i am accessorizing with pink earrings and a bracelet. my shoes are black heels that make me look much taller than i actually am.