US: Kim Yugyeom X Reader [DISCONTINUED]

20 | Is This What I Want? (1) ~ 01.01.18

A new year arrives, leaving a fresh start and new beginnings to experience.

Yugyeom and I spent most of the Christmas Holidays together, going on dates, watching movies and eating as much food as we could. Since we would spend most of the weekdays together, on weekends we would spend time with the rest of the boys.

Yuna finally told me what happened between her and Youngjae so whenever we would be with the boys, she would come along to be with him. Yugyeom and I even went on a few double dates with them.

The Christmas Holidays were the most fun I've had in a long time since the start of college. Adjusting to college was hard, especially with bumping into Yugyeom again. Now that he and I are back together, I finally feel settled in. But something has been on my mind that I can't forget about.

The moments when you lay in bed, before falling asleep, are times when everyone is deep in thought. Just like everyone else, most of those moments during the holidays I spent imagining what my life would be like in Korea as a dancer. Ever since Yugyeom told me about the JYP scout, I can't help but think about all the possibilities. Thinking about it always gets me excited but at the same time, I don't want to leave Yugyeom. I decide to call him.

"Gyeom ah?"

"Mmm..." Half sleep, he picks up the phone eager to talk yet too sleepy to. I check the time, realising how late it actually was.

"Omo! Sorry oppa...I didn't realise it was 2am. You can go back to slee-."

"Nooo I'm already up. Don't hang up on me now!" He moans, trying to wake himself up.

"Are you okay Jia?"

"Yh I'm fine, I just couldn't sleep. I've been thinking about a lot."

"The JYP scout, am I right? You want to meet him don't you? But at the same time you don't want to leave everyone if things go well...?"

He knows me better than I know myself.

"How did you-? Well yh...Now that my mum is finally happy and doing well, I've been thinking a lot about myself and what I want to do. And thanks to you, I finally have a possible career choice. But-..."

"-No 'buts' Jia. Meet with him and see how it goes. If everything goes well, go for it! Don't worry about leaving me or about leaving your mum. Your mum finally has someone who will take care of her as well as you did, and I have all my hyungs and it's not like we won't be able to talk..."

"We were broken up for over a year Yugyeom...I don't think I can go another day without seeing you."

"Jia listen to me. No matter where you are, I'll always be there for you. Yes it will be hard, but trust me. Everything will work out. You'll be enjoying yourself so much in Korea that you'll forget about me anyways haha."

"Oh shut up! You know that's not true!"

"I know I know..."

"..."

"Jia..."

"Mmm..."

"No matter what happens...don't give up this opportunity just for me...that's the last thing I would want...promise me..."

The last thing I would want is for him to feel guilty about me not going. He did all of this for me, I can't just not go after all the effort he put in for me to get this chance.

Jia, listen to him...

"...I promise..."

"And Jia...?"

"Yh?..."

"I lub yoo." He sweetly says in English, leaving me to laugh a little.

"Hehe I lub yoo too Yugyeom ah."

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