Hoseok's Bride

Chapter 34

~Jiyeon~

I knew what happened before I opened my eyes. I just knew. That's probably why I sat up in the hospital bed and started crying. I was still crying when I heard the door opened but that didn't stop me from crying too.

"Jiyeon-ah." I felt Hoseok's hand on me.

I jerked back and stopped crying. I glanced up at him, teary-eyed.

For the first time since those articles have been published, Hoseok wasn't looking at me like he hated me. I felt hot tears sliding down my face as I took in his expression.

When he tried to comfort me, it was me who pushed those hands away. I didn't want his hands on me and I refused to let him come near me. Hoseok didn't walk out though and instead, he stood far from me, watching me worriedly.

After I'd calmed down, Hoseok hesitantly ask, "What is it that you wanted to talk to me about?"

"I want out."

Hoseok frowned, not knowing where I was going with this. I figured, since Hoseok cherished me and took care of me all this time, that I owe him this. I was planning on telling him about the baby and forcing him to listen to me as I tell him about the whole Dohyun thing. This was so that we could maybe call a truce because the baby didn't deserve to be born into a world where his/her parents can't even get along. If I'd known that this was going to happen, I would have kept this miscarriage to myself and kept Hoseok in the dark. 

Knowing that it was probably my fault that I'd lost our baby, I couldn't bear to see him. I needed to get out of here and just disappear. I knew what I'm about to do was going to ruin what we have and a possible future but it's what Hoseok deserves. He doesn't need someone like me in his life. I've already ruined parts of his and his members' image. Not to mention, his parents aren't fond of me being around him anymore. It was too much for me. I needed an escape and I needed to give Hoseok another shot at love with someone who deserves him because God knows that I don't deserve him.

"You were right," I said, quietly as I looked down at my hands.

"What was I right about?"

"Dohyun," I forced myself to say, "I was hoping I could keep this a secret from you because you've done heaps for me and I don't want to ruin your image anymore."

Hoseok said nothing.

"I cheated," I spat out, feeling my throat burn for having to tell him such lies. "It's not yours."

When I felt the change of atmosphere, I looked up and saw it right there and then. Anguish. I wanted to hold him but I no longer have that right. I killed our baby and Hoseok doesn't even know it.

"Hoseok—"

"You were my whole world and it meant nothing to you."

"Hoseok," I whispered.

He took a step away from me, his eyes filled with anger and hurt. In a quiet voice that shook with emotions, he said, "I think it's best if we stay away from each other."

I felt tears in my eyes. It was killing me to do this to him but what was I supposed to do? Tell him the truth and watch him fall apart in front of me and have him think that it's his fault? If it means he won't have to suffer much, I'd be the one to carry it all.

"I really hope you'd disappear from my life," Hoseok said and I saw tears welled up in his eyes. That was enough for me to know that he doesn't mean it. "I was wrong to think that you'd feel something for me too. I was wrong to keep hoping that we can put this behind us."

"Hoseok—"

Hoseok walked towards the door, "Whatever we have left is now over."

I whispered, "I'm sorry," as I watched Hoseok opened the door and leave.