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Choice (part 2)

A/N: I will have uploaded two oneshots tonight when you are reading this! One is more dramatic, the other more fluffy and romantic... Enjoy x

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-3 weeks ago-

~L's POV~

What am I supposed to do? I cannot just tell random people my identity. But she is not a random person in the least...

It has been a while now since we met and I cannot help but feel fuzzy inside whenever I meet her. Am I... in love? I have never felt the need to meet up with someone so often. Not even when a case required it, and since she did not know of my real identity, it evidently did not concern a case at all... no, this was all personal. It got more personal every day... when should I tell her who I really am? I cannot keep my secret from her for very long. If this continues getting serious, I will have to tell her that I'm in actuality L. But what if that fact will make her hate me? It would be a completely valid reaction. She might feel lied to, do I want to risk that? Or should I just break contact before I'm completely lost in her?

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-back to present-

I froze for a while.
Lawliét? L?

Suddenly, I started laughing nervously.
"No, stop joking. Please. What does Beyond mean?"

Beyond and Lawliét just stared at me in silence. Then Beyond broke into a laugh.

"Sweetheart. I know it must be quite twisted information, but you have to believe that none of us are lying to you."

The smile disappeared from my face.
"You cannot be serious. And you're one to talk about honesty and trust, Beyond." I turned to Lawliét. "Please tell me you are not serious."

Lawliét was visibly feeling bad now.
"I cannot lie to you."

This was it.
Now I started getting angry.
"You, L?! In all honesty?? All the time, you were just playing with me? I can't BELIEVE it! You were inquiring so much about L whenever we had a conversation, you even questioned whether I would choose you or him, you were just CONSTANTLY testing me?! I cannot believe you!"
My heart sank. Not now. Don't start crying now.

"~, please listen to me..."

"No! Please, leave me alone! Lawliét... why did you do this to me...?"
Finally, I wasn't capable of controlling my emotions any longer, my tears had began to fall. I wiped them off as I turned around and ran way.

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-A few days later-

Why am I such an idiot, I thought as I threw pancakes in the air, making myself breakfast.
My reaction had been completely comprehensible. Of course. Lawliét- no, L- had tested me, and that probably more than just once. He had indeed kept his identity- or rather the fact that he was L- from me so far.
But after having time to think about it, I could finally understand.

At first, I tried to evaluate what had made him act that way. Mistrust? No. If I were L, I would not tell anyone my identity. Or just tell very few people. Especially not during the first time I meet them.
L must have been thinking about that. Even if he had decided the need to reveal his identity to me existed, he would still have to decide how. Because he might have figured that I would react this way. I still wonder when he would have told me...