Ocean Of Lies

Happiness

My time with Alex has been one of the best times of my life but I always find myself comparing him to Xavier. I started to see a therapist because of this. She told me that it was completely normal, it was never my decision to leave him behind. I was forced to leave him, the feelings never leaving would be a repercussion of that. Me and Alex will be celebrating our 6th month anniversary tomorrow.

I walk into my studio humming an old Disney song and scream as I see Alex standing in the corner. He comes walking towards me as I try to calm my breathing.

"Omg I'm so sorry babe. I didn't think I would scare you that much." I close my eyes and sit down for a moment.

"It's fine Alex, I just need to control my breathing." I open my eyes as he sits down beside me and pulls me into a hug.

"I just wanted to surprise you and do something romantic since we haven't seen each other for a while due to my training." I smile at him.

"What did you have planned?" A massive smile suddenly appears on his face which makes me smile.

"As tomorrow is a special day, I wanted to plan something special for us." He took what looked like tickets out of his pocket and held them up to me. "We are going for a walk-through central park and finally we are going to have a romantic dinner at one of the finest restaurants in New York" I stare wide eyed at him.

"No way are we doing that!" A massive smile spreading across my whole face. He also smiles at me and nods enthusiastically. I get up and drag him with me, jumping around. I jump on his back and lean across giving him a massive kiss. There's a small knock on the studio door and I get off his back and walk towards it. Alex quickly catches up with me and tells me to stay where I am while he opens it.

I roll my eyes as I know who it was going to be. Alex open the door to a very impatient looking Jay and gives him a sheepish smile.

"Are we ready for this class then Lise?" I give him a small nod as I walk towards Alex.

"I will see you tomorrow babe." Give him a small kiss, I push him out the door and watch as he gets in his car and drives away. I turn back towards Jay and help him to set up.

"I still don't like him." I roll my eyes.

"At least he didn't leave me like he did." I hear him sigh.

"It wasn't his choice and you know it. No matter how much you deny it I know that you've seen the letters he sends. There isn't a moment of the day that he doesn't think about you." I throw the coloured cones that I was holding onto the floor.

"Its not my fault he fucked everything up. I would have stuck by him if he told me when he got the phone call. I gave him every opportunity to be straight with me face to face but he was too much of a coward." I storm out of the studio and sit on the pavement outside, letting the tears flow like they have every night.

The session went by in a blur and I completely ignored Jay, making sure I was helping the people on the other side of the room. As the session ended and everyone left I started to clean up. Jay tried to talk to me but I completely ignored him and put everything into my duffel bag. As he walked out of the door, I followed and locked it behind us. Throwing my duffel bag onto the backseat of my car, I got into the drivers seat and drove away without another word.

Pulling into the garage, I jump out and walk inside. After showering and finding something to watch on Netflix I order pizza. Jay walks in and goes straight up into his room, slamming the door behind him. I roll my eyes and press play on this new movie I found. My pizza finally arrives and I start to stuff it into my mouth. My phone pings and I wipe my fingers on the napkin before opening it.

'Can't wait to see you tomorrow and enjoy our full day of activities together x'

I smile and type out a reply.

'It's going to be nice to spend a full day together xx'

I go to put my phone down but it pings again.

'Be here at 12!' I smile and don't bother writing out a reply. I snuggle into the blanket as my eyes start to close.

The whole day went by in a blur, the happiness he gives him is incomparable to anything I've experienced. I thought Xavier was my first love but the happiness I felt with him is nothing compared to what I feel with Alex. I wake up on the day of our 6 month anniversary and look across the room. I see a massive bunch of roses sitting on my desk. Smiling, I get up, walk across the room and pick up the little card sitting beside them.

I am going to make you feel extra special today, starting with 12 red roses and ending with something very special.

I pick up the roses, with a massive smile still on my face and I place them in a vase that sits on my bedside table. Getting dressed I slide down the stairs and walk into the kitchen. I raise an eyebrow as I see 11 tubs of Ben and Jerrys ice cream sitting on the side. I walk towards the counter to see another note.

Here's 11 pots of your favourite ice cream to enjoy whenever you feel peckish.

I laugh and put them all in my freezer. Going about my daily tasks I come across everything that Alex had organised while I was asleep. By 12 o'clock, I had 12 roses, 11 tubs of ice cream, 10 printed pictures of us, 9 Disney teddys, 8 anniversary cards all containing reasons why he loves me, 7 new pairs of shoes, 6 signed books from my favourite authors, 5 boxes of chocolates, 4 new tires for my car and 3 new pairs of earrings. As I get my shoes on ready to go round Alex's my phone pings again.

I hope you liked all you small gifts. I'm sorry to do this to you but they called me in to train for a couple of hours, you can still come over and make yourself at home. I will see you for our dinner reservation tonight.

I smile and grab one of my dresses from my wardrobe and walk over to his place. I let myself in and walk through to the kitchen and see his mum standing over the sink.

"Hey Carol." She turns around and smiles at me, quickly wiping her hands on the towel beside her she pulls me into a hug.

"Oh it's so good to see you again Annalise! Greg is just in the lounge." I nod and sniff the air.

"Are you baking cookies?" She smiles at me.

"Made especially for you under the request of Alex." I smile, that boy is so sweet. I walk through to the lounge and sit on the sofa beside Greg's chair.

"How are you this afternoon, sweetheart?" I smile at him.

"I'm very well thank you Greg. How are you?" He laughs.

"Bloody exhausted from helping my son think of romantic things to gift his girl." He throws a wink at me and I giggle.

"That was very sweet of you, I love every single one!" He smiles and returns back to the tv. I watch a little bit but get bored so I walk into their library. I always feel at home here, I feel like I can be myself here. I walk in and start scanning through all his books. After finding the one I started the other day, I make myself comfortable and start reading from where I left off. I finish the book in a couple of hours but Alex still isn't home so I start scanning again.