Ocean Of Lies

The future

Looking back, everything happened so fast and the people I loved the most had the darkest of secrets. Secrets I couldn't handle and secrets that nearly ended my life. But I am alive still and I have had to pack up again and move for the third time.

I know what you all think, and it didn't happen. I am alive and well. Not living my life how I had wanted but I am living it none the less. Derek didn't hurt who he wanted to, as he went to shoot me Alex came running down the driveway and collided straight with him. They fought as I crawled my way to the safest place. As I finally stood up, I heard a gunshot ring through my ears. I turn with tears in my eyes hoping to god it wasn't Alex on the receiving end of that gun.

As I turned around, I saw Alex laying there and Derek kneeling beside him. My worst nightmare had come true, the thing I was most scared about. I see Derek stand and lift the gun, pointing it at me.

"You caused this. The only family I had left. You killed him as well!" The gun goes off and I feel the pain radiating up my arm. I bite my lip, not letting myself scream. He was right, I was the reason that Alex is now dead.

 I walk forward until the end it pressed against my forehead. Clutching my arm with tears streaming down my face I looked him in the eyes and ask him to end my misery. I closed my eyes as he flicked the safety off again. I had never wanted death as much as I did right then. He took the man I loved from me but when I heard the gunshot, I opened my eyes to see Derek hitting the floor.

The running was over. I was safe from him. I manage to look over at my house and see Jay standing in the doorway before I pass out.

It's now been 3 years since that tragic day, these 3 years haven't been easy. I've cried, laughed and struggled my way through the sadness and everyday seems as worse as the last one. Me, Jay and George moved out of that neighbourhood and into a farm in Texas. The only reason we have this farm is because Jay got married to a nice country girl called Indiana, who is now pregnant for the second time!

As I sit on the grass outside the front of mine and George's house, I look up at him as he watches our little girl playing with Jays son. Placing a kiss on his cheek he looks down at me.

"What was that for?" I smile.

"I just wanted to remind you that I am here to talk to. I know today is his anniversary but we both have each other." He nods and places a kiss on my lips. Pulling away he smiles.

"I think it's time I visited his grave." I nod and lay my head on his lap as he rubs small circles over my scar on my arm.

"I think it is, I am just as angry with him as you are, but he sacrificed himself for me." I feel him sigh. 

"I know babe. It's about time I let this go and visit him." I close my eyes, not bothering to say another word. Completely content with my life.