EZH #4: Caspian Hernandez [COMPLETED]

Chapter 4

Chapter 4

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Living the life of an official bum was not as easy as other people might think it was. Some might think that it was an ideal life because why not? Nakahilata ka lang maghapon at wala kang dapat gawin. No troubles, no responsibilities. But it wasn't always like that.

Sometimes, it was entirely the opposite thing.

Problema ko na lang lagi ano na ba susunod ko na gagawin sa buhay.

Sure, I could read and all those lazy stuff lazy people do but I wasn't really a lazy person. I was just extremely unmotivated so I wasn't really doing anything. Still, there was this constant itch in me that always bothered me. My body wanted to do something; like take a walk outside or anything.

But then again, my mind was too tired to even walk around my unit.

Anxiety does that to people. It drains the energy out and tire people who has it even when they were just laying around all day. I knew because I was very much accustomed to that feeling.

Iyong pagod kahit wala namang physical activity na ginagawa. All the unnecessary negative thinking was too much that the body became physically exhausted from it.

One physical therapist told me that taking walks and exercising helps, that a healthy lifestyle could chase the thoughts away. If the body was physically healthy, the mind would surely follows.

So she basically told me na kulang sa oxygen ang utak ko as a result of my lack of physical activities.

But can they blame me, though? Kung sa lahat na lang ng bagay na gagawin ko, natatakot ako na baka huli ko na 'yun? Kasi hindi naman talaga ako tao na healthy living. Paano kapag sinumulan ko mag-healthy living, mamatay na lang ako bigla?

I shook my head to hopefully take away the brewing negative thoughts na nagsisimula na naman kumalat sa utak ko. Sa sobrang dami ko na free time, marami akong oras para mag-over negative thinking.

"I love my life." I sarcastically huffed as I lay on my bed, the chargers of my gadgets in tangles around me. Napairap ako bago ko pinilit na tumayo. I pouted, it was not like anyone could see me. "Ano ba pwede kong gawin?"

Yesterday, buong hapon ko pinanood iyong live feed ng mga CCTV nitong building ng condo. I was too bored, I almost hacked my neighbors CCTV cameras.

Come to think of it, I already thought about it a lot before but I have a lot of free time so I'm going to think about it again now, ano bang meron sa kabilang unit at may sarili silang security system? Theirs was not even the simple, standard one. The algorithm of their system was just so complicated that made it hard to crack. I tried because, well, I'm a bored woman.

Sa lahat ng unit dito, iyong sa kanila pa lang talaga 'yung di ko pa nakikita ang loob.

What I was doing was illegal, I know. But as I've said, I was bored. Besides, the government won't put me behind bars if ever I would be discovered, I was sure of that. Masyado akong matalino para ikulong.

Besides, I have private numbers of multiple government secret agencies from states. Kung makulong man ako, I knew they'd bail me out. Why not? Noong nasa Harvard pa ako ay ilan nang agents ang lumapit sa akin para kumbinsihin ako na maging agent din.

As much as it sounded cool, I declined. Narito sa Pilipinas ang buhay ko, I've always knew that. Kahit pa kalahati ng buhay ko ay nasa ibang bansa ako, I just knew it in my gut that I was always meant to come back here. I wasn't sure why, but it was I could almost feel it.

My home was here. I haven't found it yet, but it was definitely here.

Tumayo ako at lumabas ng kwarto ko. I went inside the other room here in my unit, the one that served as my geek lab. Lumapit ako sa computer set ko. Binuksan ko kaagad ito. The last time I sat down like this in front of my computer that I actually had fun was when I deleted all the traces if Demi's almost murder video of her cousin. The video was still in the internet, it would forever be there, but all the traces of it was gone. Binura ko na lahat. So even if it was still in the internet, no one could find it.