The gut feeling of your stomach in knots.
The air you've been trying to grasp.
The tears you've been wanting to hold back for so long.
The numbness of no emotions what so ever.
The fear of being happy because you've never felt like that in a long time.
The feeling of being in a black hole and not being able to get out of it.
The urge to lean on to someone to help you out of the pit of darkness you've been in for so long.
The loss of yourself and fear of explaining others your deep feelings you can't not explain to even yourself.
The agony and anxiety, your nightmare will never end.
Pain.
An emotion.
If only it would just get out of your system for once, then everything will be okay.
The fear of being okay scares you because maybe the demons inside your head will come back to haunt you again.
Hoping you'll dream about pain instead of living it because even that takes your breath away.
Just hoping you'll feel again one day.
Just one day you'll be yourself.
