More Than You Know

8: Feelings and Vows

Heya lovelies!! I'm well aware that I haven't posted a chapter in months. I'm honestly so bad at this, but now the school holidays have started I should be up and running! No more assignments and tests, actually I tell a lie I still have to do my Maths assignment, ugh. I'm sorry if this chapter is really bad I'm writing it on my phone instead of my laptop which I usually write it on.

Anyways, quote of the day is by unknown: 𝓛𝓮𝓽 𝔂𝓸𝓾𝓻 𝓼𝓶𝓲𝓵𝓮 𝓬𝓱𝓪𝓷𝓰𝓮 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝔀𝓸𝓻𝓵𝓭 𝓫𝓾𝓽 𝓭𝓸𝓷'𝓽 𝓵𝓮𝓽 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝔀𝓸𝓻𝓵𝓭 𝓬𝓱𝓪𝓷𝓰𝓮 𝔂𝓸𝓾𝓻 𝓼𝓶𝓲𝓵𝓮🧸💝

Enjoy reading!!
lil_nooby
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Shawn's P.O.V.
Have you ever lied to someone to cover up your true feelings for them? Have your lies ever hurt yourself more than the person you lied to? Well in my case, I have and geez, does it stab you in the back.

Delané and I have always been the best of friends; we have the kind of bond you can't replace. I love her, sure but as a friend, at least that's what I keep telling myself.

I can't admit to my own feelings because the nagging thought that Lané only sees me as the best friend I am is constantly stuck in the back of my head. Maybe I just really like having her around, maybe I'm not catching feelings for her at all.

That didn't explain why we came so close to kissing, so close to something that can ruin your entire friendship.

It was when she pulled back, that I knew i was trapped in the friend zone. Just two words that can break a persons heart. I, Shawn Peter Rual Mendes was friendzoned.

I kicked a loose stone on the footpath and was mentally facepalming myself for even considering on making a move on Lané. I could hear my phone going off with all sorts of notifications from social media.

Usually this would make me feel happy and appreciated but today it was just beginning to annoy me. I love my fans, but when your contemplating whether you like someone or not it's hard to not be annoyed by the constant notifications.

I pulled my phone out of my pocket to put it on silent but was surprised when I saw the notifications were coming from Camila. My heart dropped a little in my chest; I guess I would've preferred to see Lané's name instead.

Camila: Hey Shawny boy, hows it going x
Camila: I just had the best idea
Camila: Nvm, I lost it
Camila: You there Shawn?
Camila: Are you ok? Xxx
Shawn: Yeah, sorry I was just hanging with Lané.
Camila: Oh, ok. I see. How you going anyways? x
Shawn: Better than ever. I'm so glad to be home.

Lies.

Camila: That's good to hear. I hope we can catch up again soon xxxxx
Shawn: Yeah, that'd be good. I gotta shoot now Cami.
Camila: Ok, baiii!! Stay safe xxx
Shawn: Cya

I let out a long, deep sigh while I shoved my phone back into my pocket. I know I was being unfair towards Camila, but the mood I was in was really crappy. The cool breeze swept across my face and it really soothed my confusion and I guess, heartbreak?

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Delané's P.O.V.
Ever regretted doing something? Like really badly, even though you know it would be wrong.. I'm in that situation right now. The force that was pulling me towards him was so strong, I should've given in.

It's what I wanted, to feel his lips against mine, the thing I've been craving for so long. Shake it off Dell, he likes Camila. She's all the things I'm not; pretty, famous, talented, smart; and I'm just here acting like your typical moody teenager.

"Mamãe!! Can you come up here for a sec?" I screamed from my position on the bed. I heard the sound of Zoé crying from downstairs and I felt guilt rush over me. I'd be getting quite a stern word about this later.

After a few minutes the sound of Zoé crying began to fade out and eventually she stopped. I began to hear the footsteps of my mom walking up the stairs. There was a soft knock on my door and then it swung open revealing my not so happy mom.

"Lané, o que eu te disse sobre ficar quieta quando sua irmã está dormindo? (Lané what have I told you about being quiet when your sister is sleeping?)" Mom lectured me in Portuguese.

"Sinto muito, mamãe, isso não vai acontecer novamente. (I'm sorry, momma, this won't happen again." I mumbled back.

"It better not." She sighed while rubbing her index finger on her forehead.

"Everything ok mamãe?" I questioned anxiously. Mom had tired eyes and was clearly exhausted. guess being a single young mother really is hard.

"Everything's fine, bubba." Mom took a seat on the end of my bed and looked at me.

"What's up? Why did you call me?" I anxiously cracked my knuckles and debated on asking her for advice or not. Wouldn't it be awkward, considering she's my mom, but then again she's one of the closest people to me in my life.

"Lané baby, you can talk to me about anything, you know that right?" She said reassuringly, as if reading my thoughts.

"Its about a guy. A guy I thought I liked, a guy who I nearly kissed." I admitted still trying to sort out my thoughts. Mom narrowed her eyebrows and a small smile spread across her face.

"This guy doesn't happen to start with an S and end with a Mendes."

I looked out my window for a second, and watched the wind blow against the trees. The leaves fell gracefully onto the ground, as it they were feathers.

"No. Its not Shawn. Some other guy." I lied while staring out the window.

"Thats to bad. Well, I guess the best thing I can say is to follow your heart."

I nodded my head and said thanks before she walked out of my room. I flopped back on my bed and screamed into my pillow, louder than I ever had before.

"Thats it!" I screamed as I sat back upright on my bed. "We are starting fresh Delané Santos!"

That day I made a vow, to start fresh and forget about any romantic thing Shawn and I ever had. Of course, stupid me would later on find out that you can't forget about the people you love. As soon as their in your heart, you can't get rid of them.

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I know its short, but I'll post another chapter after dinner. Love you guys!!

lil_nooby

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