More Than You Know

19: Toxic

Ugh, Jack Sparrow marry me. (The photo above isn't mine by the way, it was retrieved off Pinterest.) Thought I'd bless your eyes ;) I'm kidding, I'm kidding!!

Helloooo my lovelies, I've recently been obsessing over Pirates of the Caribbean and have fallen for the Cap'n. Even though he doesn't really exist — *cries internally*. Well he does, just as Johnny Depp. Anyways I'll get over it just as I did with Tony Stark. A girl can dream.

How have you all been? Well I do hope. I've reached the middle of Australia and let me tell you it's bloody freezing but beautiful. I really wanna live here, in the bush, isolated from the buildings of the city where it's peaceful and quiet nearly all the time.

I am so sorry about the coarse language, I'm just using it to channel Delané's inner emotions.

Enough of my rambling, I shall now bring you today's quote of the day by Tony Stark yet again: 𝙄𝙩'𝙨 𝙖𝙣 𝙞𝙢𝙥𝙚𝙧𝙛𝙚𝙘𝙩 𝙬𝙤𝙧𝙡𝙙 𝙗𝙪𝙩 𝙞𝙩'𝙨 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙤𝙣𝙡𝙮 𝙤𝙣𝙚 𝙬𝙚 𝙜𝙤𝙩. 🌏❤️

I couldn't agree more. Thank you to all our doctors, nurses and everyone helping save lives on the frontline of this pandemic.

Enjoy reading my lovelies!!

-ani

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"Delané your fathers a murderer."

I can't explain what thoughts ran through my head in that moment - that is if I thought my thoughts. Moms words rung through my head, but the main word murderer kept repeating itself over and over. First Degree murder; that isn't dad. He could never. I've never seen him yes, but I know that he would never kill someone. Not unless he had a reason or was forced to. And mom, she sounded over the moon. I mean, how cold hearted can one person be. Dad was on death row, the death row, and was being killed sometime within the next two months. The father whom brought me into this world was going to be taken out against his will before I even got to see him. I didn't believe this, not at all. I would go to court and I would stand up for my fathers fucking rights. I wasn't gonna lose him. Not now.

"Lané baby?" Moms voice perks through the phone, "you there baby girl?"

"Sua puta (you bitch)." I say to her with a mild tone.

By this time Shawn is pulling on my arm, trying to get me to tell him what's happening on the phone and why I'm being so rude to my mom. He kept asking if I was ok and why I was crying but I continued blatantly ignoring him. I shot him a glare and took a step away from him. I wasn't insinuating to be rude, I just wanted some privacy. He backed up and leaned against some car while keeping his eye on me the entire time.

"I beg your pardon young lady." Mom retorted almost right away.

"You heard me right ma. It's sickening for you to be happy about someone being locked up in a prison where he's only going to be waiting to die. I can't believe you; your happy about a man you used to love who's going to be killed. I-I can't believe I have to call you my mom. Your a disgrace to the Santos family." My rage and anger spilled out in whips that lashed at moms heart. If she was going to disrespect my father on an entirely new level, well I was going to let her know I wasn't having it.

"How dare you insult me in such a way! I have done nothing but protect you from that wretched mans ways. I shielded you from him for sixteen years!! I took it upon myself to raise you all by myself when I could've just abandoned you or given you up for adoption. You were a fucking mistake Delané! You aren't meant to be here. You ruined my life at the very least- you caused three quarters of my money to be stolen, made your father leave me and stop loving me and caused me to be kicked out of my own house! I can't express how angry and disappointed I am in you at the moment. Do not come home tonight, I need the house to myself and Zoé. I don't need some criminal supporting person inside my house, better yet a supporter of a murderer. I'm not saying anymore. Traitor. How dare you stab me, your ever so loyal mother in the back."