Always and Forever (Corbyn Besson x reader)

Old Feelings

I had yet another sleepless night. It was around 5 AM right now and I hadn't been able to sleep at all. I've been so stressed lately, this whole pretending thing is really taking a tole on me. Along with my worries about myself or Corbyn slipping up now I have to worry about Ashley too. Christina, Ashley, and I have been hanging out a lot. Seeing Ashley again really made me reminisce back to when we were kids and I would hang out with the Besson's. Ashley was always a big supporter of Corbyn and I together. Thinking about all of that really made me realize how much I missed the Besson's, how much I missed Corbyn. It's like all of these feelings came back that were numb before. Now I'm flooded with these old feelings, these good feelings, that I just can't get out of my head. I don't know what to do about them. Sometimes I want to make them go away, I mean I have a boyfriend, who I love. But then at the same time I wish I could get all of that back, but I can't and Corbyn and I both moved on. That's just how it has to be.
I got out of bed, there's no use just lying there for another couple of hours. I walked over to my closet and throw on a sweatshirt and a pair of sneakers before grabbing my phone and going downstairs. I walked out the front door and start to make my way to my new spot that I had found. I spotted the hill and made my way up it to the top of the clearing, I sat down and looked out at the city. By now it was close to 6 AM. I sat there just thinking, trying to clear my head. I ended up just going down the dark path of memories with Corbyn. God, I miss him.

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It was 8 AM, I've been here for a while, trapped in my own thoughts. My phone buzzed, I looked down to see a text from Christina.

Message
Christina
Ashley and I are going to get breakfast. You should meet up with us when you get back.

I texted her back telling her that I would meet up with them later. I decided that it was best if I started to make my way home. After about an hour, I had finally made it back to the house.
"Hello?" I called out as I walked inside.
No answer.
I walked further into the house and saw Corbyn sitting on the couch watching TV.
"Where is everyone?" I asked.
"They all went out. Jack and Zach went to meet up with their girlfriends. Jonah and Daniel took Jared somewhere. And Christina and Ashley went out for breakfast," Corbyn explained.
"Oh ok. What about you? Why didn't you go somewhere?" I walked farther into the room, sitting down next to Corbyn on the couch, facing him.
"Didn't want to. Also I figured someone should be here when you got home," he shrugged.
"Oh, well thank you."
"Yeah it was no problem."
I looked down at my hands, turning my body to face the TV.
"So," Corbyn dragged out, breaking the silence.
"So," I repeated, looking over at him for a second.
"How's college?" He asked.
"Uh, it's good. How's everything with you?" This was probably the worst conversation ever. It was terribly awkward, both of us afraid of crossing a line. Considering the last time we talked we got into a massive fight.
"Good, good," he said, nodding his head. "So Jared.. He seems like a nice guy."
"Yeah, he is." I looked up at Corbyn, studying his face.
"How long have you too been together?"
"A year. You and Christina have been together for what, two years?" I asked, I already knew the answer. I remember the day he brought her home to meet his family like yesterday.
"Yeah, two years." Corbyn said, awkwardly. "How does Jared treat you?"
"Corbyn, why do you even care?" I asked, this was going too far now.
"I'm just trying to catch up. We were best friends since birth, unless you have forgotten about that."
I scoffed, "we also dated for four years but you seem to have forgotten all about that."
"You guys dated?"