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1:13

-RIVER-

Why the fuck did I tell her?

Watching her face transform into the terrified expression I saw sucked. She was the one person who wasn't terrified of me. She ripped herself away from me so fast I was sure she had hurt herself.

Now watching her tremble in the corner between the tv stand and the chair crushed me. There was something about her that awakened something in me and I wasn't liking it.

Five fucking years of being numb only to have a girl come in and completely ruin me in the best way.

If anyone found out how I felt about her it wouldn't be good. When gang members have weaknesses it weakens the whole gang, not just that member.

My dad would fucking kill me if I did anything to compromise him or the gang. The only thing I could was hope she wouldn't squeal to the cops about us.

Why the fuck did I tell her?

She was terrified of me now. I could tell by the way her eyes wouldn't leave me. She watched my every movement. Her body was trembling as her knees were pulled up to her chest.

Her blue eyes were wide with panic and her hair was matted to her face as sweat dripped off her forehead. Every time I'd try to reach out to her she would flinch away from.

I didn't want her to be scared of me.

I wanted to give her space but I wanted to make sure she was ok.

I glance up at her from my spot on the couch and run my fingers through my hair.

"Princess" I try in a whisper.

Her wide eyes snap up to mine and her lips part slightly. I catch myself glancing down at her lips briefly. I couldn't help but wonder what she tasted like or how she felt.

She relaxes slightly when she studies me. I needed her to know I wasn't a threat to her. But I knew that I couldn't keep spending time with her or else.

"W-why do you have a g-gun?" She asks in a trembly voice.

"W-why would s-somebody need a gun in B-Bristol?" She asks gripping her hair and tugging at her roots.

It hurt watching her do this to herself.

Taking a risk I slowly get to my knees and crawl over to her. She flinches slightly and pulls away when I attempt to reach out to her.

"Princess I'm not going to hurt you" I assured her.

She drags her glossy eyes up to meet mine and I can see the war she's fighting inside. She releases a deep breath and wipes the sweat off her face, smearing her makeup.

My eyes instantly flick to the purple bruise on the side of her face that was peaking out under her smeared makeup.

Where the fuck did that come from?

If that asshole of a boyfriend of hers was hitting her I was going to murder the fucking bastard.

Instinctively my hand reaches out and my fingers softly run over the bruise on her face. She winces slightly before I look back into her eyes.

"Who did this to you?" I ask her as I attempt to control the rage that was bubbling up deep inside me.

She opens her mouth to speak but closes it when my phone rings in my pocket. She looks defeated when I pull my phone out of my pocket and check the caller ID.

Dad

Fuck

I glance back at Emery quickly before hitting the green button and put the device to my ear.

"Ciao" (Hello)

"Where the fuck are you!" My dad screams through the phone.

I stand up slowly so as to not scare her and walk back to my room.

"Dad I had something come up."

"First What did I tell you about calling me that. I am not your father I am your boss!"

I can't help but roll my eyes. He's such a dick.

"Sorry sir" I mumble.

"You were supposed to be here an hour ago to update me on the girl. I'm not giving you anymore chances after this River. Just because you are my blood doesn't mean I won't kill you if you screw me over. Now where the fuck are you!?"

Heartless bastard

"I'm busy" I snap

Silence answers me as my dad mumbles something to someone.

"Raina has been kind enough to inform me that she is there at the apartment?" My dad says in an eerily calm voice.

Need I repeat:

Fuck

"River" he growls.

I tuck my lip ring in between my teeth, a habit I had picked up when I was stressed.

"Answer me!" He screams.

"No she's not here. She left a long time ago." I lie.

Shit. If he finds out I lied to him...

"She was there?"

"Yes. She left after she dropped off a coffee"

"Did you get any information?"

Just that her boyfriends a fucking asshole that hits her.

"No. She wasn't here for more than five minutes"

I hear my dad sigh loudly through the phone before he speaks again.

"You are such a rovinare. Carter would have gotten something out of her" (screwup)

The anger has reached its peak and my fingers clench tightly around my phone as my jaw locks.

"You have a month River. That's 30 days to get me what I need or you'll end up like your mother"

With that he hangs up.

I run my fingers though my hair and tug at my roots as I start pacing my bedroom.

"Bastard" I mumble to myself before stepping out if my bedroom and heading back to Emery.

When I enter the living room I see her now standing in the same corner with her arms wrapped around her waist.

Her panic had subsided and her eyes had gone back to normal. Her hair was moved to cover the bruise on her face.

I keep my distance and stay in the hallway entrance.

I couldn't do this to her anymore. She didn't deserve it.

I don't care what my dad did to me. I wasn't going to hurt her.

She was my weakness.

I wasn't going to let her get hurt or dragged into all this shit with the gang because of me.

I shove my hands in my jean pockets.

"I think that we should stay away from each other" I tell her.

Her eyebrows draw together and the look she gave me I couldn't quite decipher.

"I won't talk to you and you won't talk to me. We just leave each other alone"

It's for your own good.

I wanted to say it. I wanted to tell her it was for her safety. I wanted to tell her the truth.

But I can't.

She takes a step towards me and I drop my head. I hear her take a breath before she shuffles around briefly and then I don't look up again until I hear the solid oak door shut.

She was gone.

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I don't know how I feel about this. I'm partly happy that River is looking out for her, but I'm also sad that he let her go!

What do you guys think?