Don't Blame Yourself (Yoshiki x Ayumi Fanfiction)

Chapter 7: Don't Do This To Me

I'm having fun writing this... My favorite shipping being forged by MY HANDS!...

I'll just continue with the story now.

Yoshiki's P.O.V

I finally came to Shinozaki's house, and I had called a taxi so I didn't have to walk all the way here. I knocked on her door, praying for a response. I didn't want to barge in, if she was coming to the door, but at the same time I wanted to find her myself. She already thought I was rude, I might as well save another reason for her to call me that.

It had been minutes. No answer. I KNEW she was in there, because I heard something in there. Was it Hinoe or her parents? No, they would have answered the door. What the hell was she doing? Please... Please... I twisted the doorknob, fortunately unlocked. I opened the door, and peered inside. Empty. No one was in the living room, but I heard something else upstairs.

Ditching my crutches at the bottom of the stairs, I crawled up. The noise was getting louder, but it was ineligible. It sort of sounded like... Groaning? Painful groaning... If I was right...

I used the wall to pull myself up, and staggered my way into what I guessed was Shinozaki's room. Her phone was on the ground, and her glasses were on the computer desk. She had forgotten them today... I picked up her phone, and was about to close it when I saw the messages.

I had dropped my phone while I was waiting for a taxi, and some little kid grabbed it and ran off with it. Had he really deleted the messages on my end that he sent to Shinozaki? I closed her phone and threw it onto the bed, and realized the sounds were becoming muffled and strained.

It was coming from the bathroom.

I turned the knob, but it was stuck. Something was either holding the knob firmly straight, or it was locked. I knocked on the door once.

No answer.

I started to forcefully try to make the knob move, and it was gradually working. It was hard, though. I had to put all my weight into it.

OPEN YOU DAMNED PIECE OF METAL! Click. The lock snapped, and the door swung open. Sighing with relief, I shook my hands. That had hurt. I looked into the bathroom, my eyes widening at the sight.

Hanging from a hook was a red tie, and hanging from the red tie was a struggling Shinozaki. She was trying to get down, but the stool had been knocked from under her feet. I was frozen for a minute, before realizing if I didn't move now, she'd die just like Shinohara...

I ran over to her and quickly put the stood back under her feet. She shakily put her feet on it and stood, letting out pained breaths. I took the tie off of her neck and the hook, before putting the weight on my good foot and hugging her softly, so I wasn't suffocating her.

"Goddammit, Shinozaki, don't do this to me!" I mumbled, using one hand to steady myself.

"K-Kishinuma...?" She sounded surprised to see me. "G-Get off of me!" She coughed a little as she pushed me off of her. "If you hate me so much, just go!"

"I didn't write that text! Some kid did! I bet it was one of Yuka's friends or something!"

"Well it sounded exactly like what you would say. Stop playing with my heart!" Did that mean what I thought it meant...?

"If I meant it, I wouldn't have even came over here!" I argued. "You would have been dead, if I really hated you." She flinched at this, but didn't respond right away.

"W-What... Do you mean... 'Don't do this to me?'" She asked.

"Stop making me feel the pain of you dying! When I saw you about to fall off of the roof, AND when I saw you attempting to hang yourself, I felt like everything was gone" I tried to lower my tone, but it just kept raising.

"Y-You... Like me?" She blinked in surprise, but it was easy to see she had knew, but didn't want it to be true...

"Yes, you idiot..." I murmur, pulling her into a hug again, bringing her down to the floor. I close my eyes, and blink back the hot tears.

"... K-Kishinuma..."

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