I've become so numb,
I can't feel you there,
Become so numb,
So much more aware
— Numb, Linkin Park (Alex Goot cover)
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Chapter nineteen: Numb
"Why are you here?"
The man sighs loudly. "I need to talk to you."
(Y/N) rests back on the couch as her father fidgets with his fingers. "Why do you look so nervous?" She asked him.
"What I'm about to tell you," he hesitates. "I don't know how you'll feel about this..."
"I already know that you broke up with—"
"No! That's not it!"
"What is it, then?" She narrows her eyes suspiciously.
"I want you to meet someone," he says. "Some people," he corrects.
(Y/N) doesn't even have to think. "No," she says.
The father knew she would say that. "You didn't even let me tell you who, (Y/N)."
"I don't want to meet your wife or your new girlfriend or whatever!" Her sudden yelling shocks both her and her father. He quiets down as she speaks again. "I can't believe you even thought that I would! It hasn't even been a month, look what you're throwing at me. I need you to leave right now!"
"(Y/N)!"
"Get. Out."
The man sighs, but, surprisingly, follows her orders. She follows him to the door. He steps about and she is about to slam the door in his face, but he grabs it, preventing her from doing the action.
"I didn't want to hurt you—"
"BS."
"Look, I didn't want you to meet her. I want you to meet...her children...our children," he clarifies.
(Y/N)'s face of anger falls and instead, contorts to one of hurt. "You said... 'our', how old?"
"Well, there is one on the way...and one sixteen-year-old," he tells her. "The sixteen-year-old isn't mine...but the one on the way is. I'm planning on marrying her mother, so she'll be your step-sister."
The girl shakes her head, tears falling. "I should slap you right now," she says in a low tone. "How could you tell me this? I'm gonna have a half-sibling and a step-sister."
"(Y/N)," he begins.
She doesn't listen and slams the door in his face before making her way to her bedroom. She decides to stay there for a few days.
The next day, after school, Seungmin, Hyunjin, Jeongin, Chan, Changbin, Minho, Jisung and Felix stand on the other side of her door, arguing about who would knock.
"Dude, what if she answers and she's mad? I don't wanna be the person to receive that!" Jisung argues.
"And you think I do?" Felix asks.
"We should let Seungmin do it," they came to an agreement.
Seungmin groaned and was about to step up, but was confused when he saw the door open and three people missing. "Guys," he calls out loudly.
Everyone else pauses and looks where he is. "Wow, we were too busy arguing that we didn't realize Changbin, Chan and Minho knock and head in," Hyunjin mutters before walking in after Seungmin.
The others follow and find Changbin on the couch and Minho and Chan by the bedroom door.
Seungmin walks up to them and gently pushes Minho aside, so he can stand in the middle. "(Y/N)?"
Chan looks at his step-brother and shakes his head. "I don't even know if she's in here."
"So, then, how'd you get in?" Seungmin asks, confused.
"The door was unlocked," Minho replies.
"It was?" Hyunjin asks. The three boys were talking loud enough for the other five to hear.
"Surprisingly," Chan says.
"I say we break the door down," Changbin suddenly says.
"Why is he here again?" Jisung asks.
Changbin scoffs and doesn't even bother to reply to Jisung.
"(Y/N)?" Minho calls again.
"Okay, I know that sometimes when she's sulking, she does it in the bathroom, so how about someone checks there," Chan suggests.
"Ah, I will," Minho volunteers.
Seungmin raises his eyebrows at his older brother. "She's in here, isn't she?" He asks.
"Definitely, but I wanna talk to her alone and see if I can at least get her to unlock the door."
"Okay," Seungmin shrugs.
"Alone," Chan adds when he noticed Seungmin still next to him.
Seungmin's eyes widen. "Oh!" Then he walks off.
Chan sucks in a deep breath and lets it out before speaking. "Hey, I know you can hear me," he starts. "Please, just let me in. I want to talk to you."
No sound at all.
"(Y/N)? I know I keep hurting you every day and I'm sorry. I want to tell you a thousand times and hope it could heal literally everyone single scar and wound you have," he pauses.
"You're..." he tries to find the right words. "You're everything I could've asked for, but I didn't because...I don't deserve you, (Y/N). You're beautiful inside and out, I'm so lucky to have you in my life. These aren't pitied words, but they are the truth. I care about you, okay?"
"Possibly, more than a friend," he adds quietly, hoping she didn't hear.
"You can tell me anything because I'm here and if you didn't know before, you know now."
Chan stepped back from the wooden door when he heard footsteps. A click and the door was open.
Chan quickly steps in and shuts the door behind him, locking it afterward. He pulls her to him and she wraps her around his body. There, she cried as quietly as she could. In the safety and security of his arms.
(A/N: I frickin love this song even tho I don't know linkin park. Plus, we hit 1K reads yalllll)
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