Stepping into the unknown.

Meeting Mama.

A cold sweat covered my body and I felt my hands cramp and so I let go of the duvet in them. It was a nightly occurrence to wake up because of that same figure but something was different. No laughs this time but instead words. It was Apollo's voice and he was talking silkily. His words turned me on a little as he talked like he controlled me. I wasn't really wasn't nearly stupid enough to give him control. Not after Neil.

When I opened my eyes the sofa was noticed in my field of view and the fight to stop Apollo from giving his bed up filled me. And then the words he had said to me. I was having wet dreams about a man I was forced to work closely with. That didn't matter for a long time though as I washed and dressed. Stood at the door waiting for one of the boys to meet me at the entrance and sure enough Apollo was there. He had told me that Ambrose would sometimes but I was always met by him.

We travelled together and I saw my car outside his house and my heart yearned to drive again but until it all washed over I was going to have to travel with a companion. The drive was short though and so it was no issue for the time being.

When we got to work I headed to my office but got stopped short.
"Mum mentioned when I spoke to her that seeing a tough moment could be the reason for your issues at night. She gave me something to help it stop them all if you want it." I didn't have much of a choice as he grabbed my hand and pulled me into the room that he called his office.

As soon as I stepped in a smile tugged at my lips and Apollo was so busy he seemed to be distracted but as he turned a smile was made at me.
"This room makes me happy." I was quiet for some long moments before he stepped closed and moved his hand to my arm where he tried to leave it but I stepped back.

"Enyo..." I tried not to cry, I had no clue why it hurt so bad to step back from him but I had to. I couldn't be weak.

"I want to remember, I do and you should know that. Now, could I have the rest of my pants? I can put them into my bag." He agreed and unlocked his top draw before pulling out three consecutive handfuls of my panties. The last pair caught my eye though as I held them for a second longer.

"They are the pants you wore when we first had sex." His memory astounded me and the fact that he was so willing to tell me made me realise that he trusted me. But that was before.

"How can you remember that?" It had escaped my lips before anything else could be said by him and I couldn't control it at all.

"Tough not to. It happened here, in my chair and on my desk. Those pants also match with your bra. My favourite bra." I smiled and felt a little bit awkward that he could remember more of me than I could but for the life of me nothing would return to me.

The day passed uneventfully after that and my mind was put to cases not to my relationship, until time to leave came. The Luciana girl was talking to me but I felt angry and upset. I couldn't say why but I did know that the past me had known. Not that it helped because I couldn't get over the annoyance. What did help was to know that every night I could talk to my Mel. She talked for hours about things I could or the things I couldn't remember. It seemed to fit in with what had been said by the others. I was weak, just as weak as I had been when with Neil. A man who was heavy in my mind.

"You seem pensive." The topic of Neil had stuck in my mind the whole way home and I was so caught up that it turned out the engine and been turned off. I checked the time and saw that it had been off for a while as it only took ten minutes to get to his house and yet that was 20 minutes before.

"Neil had a tiny penis." I had finally said it to another person.
"I mean, so small that I don't think he actually could take my virginity." I looked to the man beside me and burst out laughing just as he did. I gestured with two fingers how long it was and laughed louder. It really was that small as well.