That smile he shows just for me

Chapter seventeen

I get up that morning and force myself to go to school.
Cmon Grayson. Don't be such a bitch.
Lukas comes up to me after first period and smiles. "How are you?"
"Good." I try to smile back.
He walks me to my next class and the rest of the day goes rather ok. I can't help but be on edge. I know if I see Mike I will have a panic attack.
I thought that I'd get through the day without seeing him but luck was never on my side.
Walking to seventh period, Mike walks by me and grabs my shoulder. Whispering into my ear he says, "Thought you'd never show your face here again, pretty boy."
And he walked away with a wink.
I feel like I'm going to die. Right here right now. My entire body freezes and I shake uncontrollably.
My breathing gets ragged and I feel a pair of hands touch my shoulders.
"No!" I yell, causing everyone in the hallway to look at the freak show.
"Hey hey it's me." Lukas spins me around and at that point I'm hyperventilating. Tears spill out of my eyes and my body is wrecked with shudders.
"What's going on?" He holds me by my shoulders and looks me over with worry.
"I-I can't b-breathe." I cry.
"Ok come on." He ushers me outside and we rush to his car, and I collapse on the ground beside it.
"What can I do? What do I do? I-I don't know how to help." He rushed out, panicked.
"I want to go h-home. Please." I cry.
"Ok. Ok. I'll call your brother when we're in the car."
He helps me in and we drive to my house. Lukas called Justin and he's on his way home. He's been a witness to many panic attack's before.
I sit on the porch with my head in my knees and wait for Justin.
Lukas shifts from foot to foot in front of me. I feel like an idiot.
I made a complete fool of my self in front of him. But I don't care at this point.
I need help.
"Gray?"
I look up and see Justin standing in front of me. "What happened?" He asks bending down to be eye level with me.
"Panic attack." I whisper.
Lukas is biting his nails, watching me.
I don't know what to do. Do I tell Justin what happened? And what about Lukas? He'll hate me. There goes any chance I had of being with him.
"I've got this from here." Justin says to Lukas.
"Text me if you need me Gray." He looks at me and I nod.
Then he leaves.
"Cmon lets get inside." Justin holds his hand out to me and I take it, helping me get off the stairs.
We walk inside and sit on the couch.
"What's going on gray? I haven't had to get you from school because of a panic attack in like a year."
I don't say anything.
"You know you can tell me anything?"
I cross my arms over my chest and sniffle. My face is probably blotchy from crying.
"Are you sure?" I look at him.
"Of course." He moves closer to me, eyes never leaving my face.
"Ok."