Anorlexiea (A Grey's Anatomy Fanfic)

My Story

My Story

Chapter 1

Lexie's POV

        You know my name, not my story. You know my family, but not our history. You know the rumors, but not the truth. Maybe it's time you learn the truth. My name is Lexie Grey and I'm a surgical resident at Seattle Grace Hospital. I'm your normal everyday girl. I love to fangirl over bands, save lifes, and go on dates with my boyfriend Mark Sloan. The one thing you or anyone else dosen't know about me is that I'm anorexic.

        It all started in junior year of high school. That was the year where my self esteem was at in all time low and most days it still is. Anyways, during junior year, I was bullied by popular girls who were complete bitches. They would make fun of me for a lot of things, especially my appearance and weight. I was a bit chubby in high school, but I wasn't fat. Eventually, the mean names and insults became so much for me that I couldn't take it anymore. I started to starve myself on a regular basis. I lost weight really fast and before you know it, I only weighed 80 pounds. My parents freaked out and sent me to off a pysch hospital for a few months. Those few months at the psych hospital helped me a little bit, but not much. I've put on some weight since then which is good, I guess.

        I still starve myself a lot to this day. Some days I don't do it on purpose. Sometimes I get pulled into long surgeries and I don't have the time to eat. Other days though, I do starve myself on purpose. I think the main reason I do it is because Mark has a reputation of only liking skinny girls. I'm afraid that I weigh more than 105-110 pounds, then he'll leave me. I love him too much and that's why I've kept my eating disorder a secret from him. Hell, I've kept my eating disorder a secret from everyone, including my sister Meredith. I feel guilty for not telling them, but I'm only trying to protect everyone from dealing with the trainwreck that is me. Personally, I believe that telling them would make everything worse and that I'd probably get shipped off to another psych hospital, which I really don't want to happen. You know what they say "Some things that are broken just can't be fixed."

Hope you guys liked this chapter. :) -Mary