The Teased Mate (𝓑𝓸𝓸𝓴 #1)

Chapter Forty-Seven

 I wake up in my large bed, not knowing what time it is.  I look at my Apple watch my vision is a little blurry, so I rub my eyes clear.

This was my welcoming gift from Abi since I have to be welcomed in through a pack meeting. This keeps me connected to them.

Quickly, I get up and turn on music to help me get ready for the day. I don't exactly know why, but today seems to be a pretty bright day for me. I am actually excited to spend a day, working with my best friend. I'll get the second chance thing sorted out when I am ready.

Will I honestly ever be ready? The last guy I loved had to let me go, how ironic as I think that I hear Brendan Urie sing "If you love me let me go." I had to let everything go, for safety, but I could have put other people that I love in danger, not really could anymore. But they are willing to fight for me because I have connections with their luna and their rightful alpha.

Also, the moon goddess seems to be connected to my family. You see in wolf mythology there are multiple different moon goddesses and gods. It's different. It's like a group of women deciding your fate except, there king a king and a prince. They rule over all and live up in a castle in the sky.

Yeah, the castle is basically heaven. You see God is not something that supports us. He rules over the humans horribly, he's lazy (compared to how active our gods are). At least he doesn't control the humans to find their significant others. Imagine being human and having to get with someone because of some random algorithm.

Each moon goddess has a task, Flora the goddess of all things living. She takes care of our woods. Evelyn the goddess of love, works alongside the queen. The queen technically doesn't exist. No one has been able to take the rule of king and queen. There is the God of War, he would normally work with the king. The Goddess of Trickery I call her the one who causes all the damn plot twists!! Ugh, she doesn't like it when life is simple. The goddess of tricks is just a myth that all take part in it, to be honest.

There are so many more, but we worship the moon goddess the most. She is the goddess of the moon. She balances out the gods and goddesses. According to her, she is my grandmother. Her saying that is like when humans get called gods children. The moon goddess did something reckless and now, I have to pay for it. Without her recklessness, I wouldn't be here.

Contemplating now on if I should wear shorts, I am a little insecure about my body now. My hips are huge and my legs have gotten reasonably bigger. I feel very self-conscious about my body. Anthony used to be able to hold me and I could feel the love radiate off of him. I don't want to miss him! Goddamnit.

I hate not being able to keep my emotions at bay. I quickly grab a red t-shirt and a pair of black velvet overalls, they are shorts and are very flattering to me. Not to mention they are comfortable as crap.

It's weird now, not having my family near, I won't even have to lock the bathroom door when I want privacy. Miguel and Anthony are all the way across the country. But, I still lock the door as I slip out of my robe. The mirror in the bathroom is huge, my products are already in the shower, a new toothbrush and toothpaste sit by the sink. My brush is still in my bag. I look at myself, puffy eyes, and a very prominent bump with my baby girl. She doesn't know how much I love her. Without her, I would be lost and or soon to be killed by my grandfather.

He doesn't know that he is, so I can't hold the whole family against him. I hold my bump and try my best to mind link, Anthony. I get through, but he cuts it out before I can say anything.

"Anthony our little girl is safe now, please let me in. Make sure my family is safe...please if you can hear me...please, make sure they are safe." I send through mind link to him. I wanted to say I love you but saying it would be too painful.