Steps •asheiji•

•Chapter 23•

art: @vc-arts on tumblr

Ash POV

Oh my god, oh my god, oh my god, oh my god oh my god. Oh. My. God! I just fucking had sex with the Eiji. Well, kind of. I fucked him. Sort of. I don't know! Oh my god.

It's the next morning but Eiji's still asleep. I guess he must be really tired. I closed my eyes and flashbacks from last night flashed in my mind.

My heart started to race thinking back on how Eiji was acting. His voice sweet like honey. His back arching beautifully as he fell into this euphoric state.

I envied him in some ways. Seeing him like that, I long to have that same feeling of bliss while doing something so intimate.

Realizing that I was the reason for that bliss caused my face to flush and I could tell that the tips of my ears were burning as I kept thinking back to that night.

I want to feel that.

Eiji POV

I woke up an empty bed to the sun shining through my window. I attempted to shift my position but was stopped by a sharp pain in my lower back.

"Ow. Jeez. I really should've taking things a litter slower."

But why'd it feel so right last night? My emotions were all over the place. It's like I was overcome by lust and I couldn't think straight. It was a new feeling to say the least.

Author POV

Eiji walked into the living room to Ash reading a book on the couch. He was trying to hide his limp so Ash wouldn't worry.

They made eye contact and just stared at each other from across the room.

Eiji was now wearing an oversized pink sweater and some boxer briefs after he took a quick warm shower to freshen up.

Ash's glasses rested on the bridge of his nose while he was wearing his usual lounge wear which was a black tank top and grey sweats. He hair was tied back into a ponytail with a small green band.

"Uh good morning." Eiji said looking down at his feet breaking the awkward silence. Now it's just awkward noise.

"It's noon actually." Ash said getting off the couch walking to were Eiji stood.

"How are you feeling?" The blonde asked looking down at his lover. His hair was messy and damp from his shower and his frame looking extra small in his big sweater.

"I feel fine. How about you?"

"I can't describe how I feel." Ash said
"Happy? Nauseous? Anxious? Curious?"

Eiji hummed in response. "That's completely normal. I'm just glad you're not having any relapses."

Ash looked away.

"Hey." Eiji said cupping Ash's face. "I'm proud of you."

Ash smiled at this and pulled Eiji in for a hug. The smaller boy wincing a bit as he was still sore but wrapped his arms around the taller nonetheless taking in his scent.

"How about I make you some breakfast and you go back to bed and relax." Ash said while pulling away from their tight embrace. "I'll come and get you when it's ready okay?"

"I would like that a lot actually." Eiji said with a smile.

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After a while Ash came into their shared bedroom with a butter and bread sandwich and a cup of tea and set it down on a side table next to the bed.

Eiji sat up and thanked Ash for the food and as  he was walking away Eiji called him back.

"Come here." Eiji said in a soft voice as he reached his arms out for his boyfriend.

Ash bent over and let his baby hug him in the warmest embrace.

"Ash are you okay?" Eiji asked stroking the back of his boyfriend's head.

"I'm relieved." He replied.

Eiji quirked an eyebrow, "What do you mean by that?"

"Last night I was literally on the verge of a panic attack. I-I didn't know if this was going to ruin what we have. Or if I was going to break down and wuss out and leave in the middle again. And just the idea of not knowing was making my heart beat so loud I was sure you could hear it. The way my heart skipped a beat when you told me to stop. I thought for sure I was gonna fucking pass out."

Eiji shrunk into their hug feeling guilty.

"But the moment you started enjoying it, your whole body started to relax and that made me feel less anxious." Ash said as he looked Eiji in the eyes.

"You were stunning...You looked free. Just looking at you as your head hit the pillow and you let yourself be completely submerged in the moment. You didn't look like you were worried. Or scared. You just looked like you felt safe. And knowing that I was the cause of that made my nerves go away. Never in my life have I thought of myself as a safe person to be around. I never thought I could give anyone that sense of comfort."

Ash paused needing to take a breath.

"I remember you passing out right after and you looked so at peace." 

Eiji started to blush

"Thank you." Ash said pulling Eiji in for another hug. "Thank you for believing in me....Thank you for not giving up on me....Thank you for staying."

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I'm thinking of writing another story. Not banana fish related but it's been on my mind for awhile🤔