Because of that day (Jai Brooks Fanfic

Am I ready?

"We'll never be ready. So I guess that means we're as ready as we'll ever be." ~Neal Shusterman, UnWholly

Today's my first day in chemotherapy. I don't know what I'm doing or how I even agreed to do this but I know why I'm doing this. I'm doing this for Jai. It scares me that I have to go under this machine which causes my hair to fell out. I'm not liking this out all. My hands are shaking as I wait for my first session. Slowly, I felt a hand grab mine and I gave a small smile to Jai as he kisses my temple. I felt more relaxed with him here. I needed him here and I'm glad that he came with him. Even though he needs get ready for the tour which starts in 2 days.

"Miss Parton" A nurse called out.

"Yes" I choked out.

"Are you ready?" She asked me

Do I want to do this? Why? Why now? Why me? Why not someone else? Is this how its gonna be for the rest of my life? But the main question is am I ready?

"Yeah of course I am" I laughed out.

"Come on then" Jai whispered in my ear.

He gently pulls onto my hand as we walk down to the room which will take my hair. I squeezed Jai's hand as we get nearer to it. Suddenly, we took to a halt. The nurse looked at Jai then she shook her head. Jai begun to move away from me as his hand slips out of mine.

"I'll be out here when your done" he smiled to me.

"Okay" I whispered.

"I love you" He gleamed.

"I love you too"

I turned back around as I strolled into the scary room. My eyes started to wonder then I saw it which made me do a squeak noise. Its a huge machine. I rather have the one that removes the lump but I don't have a lump so it wouldn't work out. I had to strip out of my clothes into these disgusting hospital. I had to wear a ski mask with sunglasses, not a great look.

"Ready Miss?" The nurse grinned to me.

"Sure" I dragged out.

"So all you do is lay down and don't move! It will be done within a few minutes, I would say seconds but this blasting thing is so slow" a doctor moaned to me.

I moved over to this weird bed thing as I stretched across it. I heard the machine start running and felt like shouting stop but Im ready I can do this. I can do anything.

JAI P.O.V

I waited patiently outside the ward as I watched other people go by with their lives. I stood up and took a little walk around the hospital. I ended up outside in front of a ring market then I saw the perfect ring. No I do not want to propose to Ashley because we are young but in the future I will. This ring would be a promise ring and I'll get the same one as her to show out promises to each other.

"Excuse me can I have these two rings" I called out the market owner.

"Would you like them engraved?" He asked me.

"Yes can one say 'I promise Ashley' while the over says 'I promise Jai'"

"Alright then, that would be 100 dollars but it won't be done till tomorrow" he informed me.

"That's fine, I'll have the money by tomorrow" I told him.

Quickly, I made my way back to the hospital and found Ashley sitting there perfectly waiting. She turned to see me walking then she sprinted past everyone and gave me a hug which I returned.

"Where were you?" she whispered.

"Toilet" I lied.

"Oh"

"Do you want to go home?" I chuckled.

"Yes please! Lets go" She said as she pulled on my arm.

After a long drive home, we were finally cuddled up on the sofa. We chose to watch this film called About A Boy. I have to admit its a really good film. The best part is when he throws a hard rock bread at the duck and killed it. Ash gave me lecture about how it's not funny to kill ducks but when I told her that she ate duck last week, she just shut up.

Slowly, I stroke her hair then she turned around to face me. Her face is so delicate and beautiful. I can't believe she was taken away from me before and now she's gonna be taken away again. I can't bare it. My thumb carelessly moved across her cheek. I made a inch closer to her then our lips met. It felt amazing. As we made out my hands trailed up her shirt then she pulled away from. I looked into her eyes then I think if I'm moving to fast or not.

"Sorry" I whispered to her.

"No don't be, I'm ready" She smiles to me.

"Promise if it hurts badly or you not up for it to tell me" I pleaded to her.

"I'm ready Jai, I love you and I want you to take it " She giggled to me then kissed my lips.

I pulled her close to me then gently I picked her tiny little figure up as she wrapped her legs around my waist. We made our way into her bedroom, where I softly place her on the bed. I began to take her shirt off but very slowly just to make sure she want this. Suddenly, I felt her hands pull my shirt up then at the same time both of shirts are gone.

I looked over her body and I was amazed at how perfect it is and how beautiful she is. I jumped back on to her lips as we start to kiss more. Every now and then I would massage one of her boobs. My hands chose to wonder down to her trousers, I started to undo the buttons and flyer then I felt her body tense. Quickly, I looked into her brown eyes to see if she's okay but she nodded her head for me do it. As I took her trousers, she sat up and started to pull mine down.

I laid her back down gently then my hands trailed up her thighs which made her shiver. I looked back at her before I did anything as I don't want to do it unless she really wants too. I could tell that she's fighting with herself about this.

"Are you sure?" I asked her on more time.

"Yes" she mutters under her breath.

Slowly but gently I put it in. She hissed in pain, I kept going as I know it would be over soon. I kept kissing her lips to show its okay but really I'm hating myself because I'm causing her pain. I see her brown eyes water up as I went further.

"You alright?" I questioned her.

She just nods her head. I kept asking her if she was alright when ever she hissed or screamed in pain. Suddenly, I felt myself about to cum so I took it out then laid next to Ashley. I wiped the tears that fell from her eyes. I planted a kiss on lips then pulled away slowly.

"I'm sorry if it hurt" I said to her.

"Its fine don't worry, your still hard" She whispered to me quickly.

"Yeah, I don't have any jonnys" I chuckled to her.

"Oooh" She dragged out.

"I'm just go to bathroom but I'll be back" I told her.

"Okay" She sleepily said.

"I love you little soul mate"