Love Is Not Enough [Complete]

Chapter Twenty

I guess that's the end of Bruno and I.
I just don't see myself with someone like him anymore. Or I was just deceived by all his cuteness for me not to see his lying and dishonest ass.
But really, Bruno has done nothing that looked suspicious, he has been there whenever I needed him. And all the hours we spent together Lelo never called.
Maybe it really is a arranged marriage.
It could be, cause nobody hides things this perfectly.
Oh my gosh, who am I kidding?
If he kept Lelo a secret, he could be lying about the arrange marriage thing.

Oh man... My life is such a stupid joke.
When I got here I thought life would be a little difficult because of JR being a big brother but no, it's just a stupid asshole who I only got to know in a few days.
A few flippin' days.
Seriously, we've only gone on one proper date.
And now he's engaged to get married?
What a disgrace.
The funny thing about this whole funny life is that I really, really like him.
No, scratch that, I'm in love with him.
At this point I'm just confused on what to do.
I'm mad about him keeping Lelo a secret but at least he isn't married yet, it should be a good thing right?
All men are dishonest and cheaters but it doesn't mean we must allow all the bullshit they pull right? That's why I'm mad. No no, scratch that, I've got a lot of reasons to be mad. He's fuckn' getting  married, and he's using me as one of his side chicks, or maybe he doesn't love Lelo...
What the fuck? What am I saying? He didn't love Brenda as well. I'm sure the next girl he meets he'll say he didn't love me.
Gosh... honestly I don't know what to think.

3 days has passed and I haven't spoke or seen Bruno.  It's the last year of high school so I shouldn't be stressing about those who are being forced or whatever to get married. “But why are they making them get married without them deciding to?”, man I didn't think some cultures still do that.
Anyway, “us” not talking is for the best.
But that's because I don't answer his calls and JR would never allow him near our house.
He stopped calling me last night though.
This morning I woke up to find my phone silent, it wasn't ringing and had no missed calls or texts. Somehow it hurt me. I know, since I met Bruno I thought all my days were gonna be with him. I just thought I've found the one person who I'll share my love with, and be loved the way I deserve. But oh no, he's taken, like taken taken.
Now how do I tell my heart to accept the changes of being unloved by Bruno.
Man, you might think that I'm exaggerating since I've known him these few weeks. And oh, schools will be reopened in a few days.
God I'm not looking forward to it.
In the passed 3 days that I haven't seen Bruno I've been cooking myself up in my room. Dad even thought that I'm sick or something. Kate kinda knew what was happening or seemed like she knew and JR has been acting like nothing happened. He's not friends with Bruno anymore, or that's what I think but the fact is, things have been miserable around me.
Phila has been sneaking in the house to JR's room a lot and they both think that I don't know about it, anyway I'll keep them thinking so.
I'm just emotionally drained to the point that I can't even recover from it. I feel so depressed. How did I even fall so hard for this boy?
I feel bad for avoiding my Mum's calls though, it's just that I know I'll break into tears the moment I hear her voice and she'd want to know what's happening, I don't wanna talk about it so I'll ignore her calls for now.

This morning JR has been on the phone acting weird. Everyone thinks that I'm still sleeping but I'm not, I'm listening to all their movements while my head is buried under the pillows.

"Linda please come down for breakfast, it's almost 11 O'clock", Kate yells after budging in my room.

"I'm still sleeping", I said lifting my head up from under my pillows.