Love Is Not Enough [Complete]

Chapter Twenty Eight

Right after Sky and Adrian have left, I locked myself in my room. That's just basically what I do best. I felt so guilty, so responsible of ruining my relationship with Bruno, even though he's the one with a lot of baggage he doesn't wanna take care of.
I thought about all the days I spent with him, all the things he said and all that he promised me.
Tears ran down my cheeks.
He just upsets me so much and at the same time I wanna be with him.
I picked up my phone from my bed, lighting it up so I'll make a quick phone call. I scroll down on my contact list searching for my mum's number. I got to it and pressed on dail.

"Mum?", I said as soon as she picked up.

"Yes honey, how are you?", she asked.

"I wanna come home", tears ran down my cheeks again, this time, they didn't stop. I kept wiping them, taking deep breaths so I wouldn't snob.

"What happened? What's wrong honey?", she asked after listening to my sniffles.

"Why can't I come home?", I asked as I tried to calm myself down.

"You know why Linda", she sighed. "Now tell me what happened to you", she demanded.

"It's nothing. I just miss home", I lied. I couldn't tell her it was over a guy who's soon to run away from getting married.
As much as I'd run if I were him, I think it's a bad idea. I think it'll be better if he tells his family and Lelo's family how he really feels, and what he wants.

"You'll come see me when schools close", she said. "I miss you a lot as well honey, I really do. The fact that i don't call sometimes is because I'm always busy these days. I'm soon to get married and I've opened my own clothing boutique, it's taking most of my time, by the end of the day I'm super tired and I forget a lot of things",

"Wow. You forget even me", I said. It's really upsetting, she shouldn't have said that. I know it might not seem like a big deal to other people but no matter how busy you are as a mum you find time in the middle of your busy schedule to call your daughter, your only daughter.

"Honey. You know what I mean",

"No I don't. But anyway I have to go", I said, I didn't wanna end up arguing with her.

"James says hi", she said quickly.

"Yeah, right back at him", I then ended the call.
She probably gasped at the fact that I didn't even say a proper goodbye.
I'm the only kid to my mum so I wasn't raised strictly. I do respect my parents but when I get angry I forget all about it.
Growing up, I got everything that I wanted, so begging people is really not part of my doings.

I rolled around bed, my mind back on Bruno again.
Should I take his offer or decline it? It would be really nice living with him.

I went through my contacts again to call Bruno. When I got to his number I didn't hesitate, I dialed before I could change my mind.
It rang with no answer.
I tried again but still, no answer.
Then I texted him.

Hey, what's up?
Just wanted to talk to you about what you said to me earlier, call me back when you get this. Bye.

Oh my gosh, this is just lame. I tossed my phone on the other side of my bed the closed my eyes to rest a little.
Few minutes later my phone beeped.
I stretched my arm for my phone, then viewed the text.

Asshole: Forget about what I said earlier, I wasn't thinking straight.
Okay that's weird, why wouldn't he call me?
I pressed on call button then waited for him to pick up, it went straight to voicemail.
What the hell is going on? Is he mad at me?

Why won't you pick up my call? I sent a text since it clearly shows that he'd prefer to text. A second later my phone beeped.

Asshole: Cause I don't wanna hear your voice.
Well, that just hit straight at my heart. I know we can't work things between us but why would he hurt me like this.

Why? I sent. It was just to keep the conversation going I suppose. He's hurting me but I still need to talk to him. Maybe if he keeps hurting me it'd be simple to forget about him.

Asshole: What do you want?

I wanna know if the offer still stands.
I started shaking. I was nervous, hurt, afraid he doesn't wanna talk to me anymore. Maybe he has realized that he really needs to be with Lelo.

Asshole: No. You declined it. Now could you stop texting me so I'd be able to give you the space you needed.

Hurt is an understatement. I got anger, I was furious.
I tossed my phone, crushing it into the wall as I screamed louder than I've ever screamed.
Seconds later JR, Kate and Dad rushed in my room. I saw worried facies but I couldn't hide what I felt as well.
My throat started closing up as I tried to speak. All I wanted to say was that I'm okay, they shouldn't worry about me.

"Linda, what's wrong sweetheart?", Dad asked with so much worry. Kate had a sympathetic look and JR had that "I know what's going on look".
Tears warmed my cheeks, I couldn't stop them, I tried saying something again but all I did was choke.
Dad sat besides me on the bed, comforting me in a hug, JR picked up my phone then went out with it.
There comes trouble. I knew JR was going to Bruno's place.

"Dad. Stop JR. Call him. To come back. I need him", he looked at me all confused. I patted his chest, indicating that he should call JR now.

"Let's go. I'm taking you to the doctor", Dad got up and tried to help me up.

"No, I'm fine Dad",

"Let me talk to her", Kate said pushing him out. She closed the door right after he went out.
She slowly walked towards me, as if she was afraid I'd scream again.

"Is this about Bruno?", she asked after she slowly seated right next to me.
Tears fell down my cheeks.
"Its okay, cry, let it all out",

I did as I was told.
I can't believe my black new family is acting all white. My Mum would have yelled at me, saying I should never cry over a guy. Crying over a guy turns a woman weak. Strong women cry over something serious.
I'd roll my eyes if I wasn't crying, just thinking about this.

"He doesn't deserve you honey", she sighed as she patted my lap. "You need to let him go and forget about him",

"Yeah. I should do that", I replied. But deep down I knew it won't be easy.

"Promise me you will", she said making me look her in the eye. Tears kept falling, I didn't know what was wrong with me anymore. On a serious note, I shouldn't be crying over a guy this bad.

"I promise", I said but averting my eyes. I didn't want to look at her. She hugged me tightly. Comforting me as much as she could.

After she left, I got under my cover listening to all the pain I was feeling. I started having a headache. All I wanted was to cry, and never stop crying. I should hate him for making me feel this way, he seriously doesn't deserve me.  Why did I even move here? This James person messed up my life. If he didn't woo my mum, they wouldn't be getting married now. I wouldn't have moved here, I wouldn't have met Bruno and I wouldn't be feeling this way. I hate myself for falling for him. I shouldn't have even became friends with him, I hate him and his girlfriend, Lelo my ass.
All I should do is wake up a different person tomorrow, I should cry now and hide it all tomorrow, nobody should see my today's pain.
Gosh.. it hurts, it hurts real bad.

I rolled around bed trying to get sleep. I couldn't sleep, no matter how bad I wanted to sleep.
I got up and checked if JR was back from where he went out to, then felt real sad when I found out that he wasn't. I quickly went back to bed, into my covers, then started humming a song so I'll relax and fall into a deep sleep.