Valerie || The Weeknd

High For This

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EXPLICIT CONTENT

Valerie:

I was taken aback from his question. I didn’t expect this, I only thought we would fuck. When I said lifestyle, I meant sex, not drugs. This shit is dangerous given the fact that Alex, my friend who is also an addict, once almost died from too much cocaine. I can’t do this.

V: “Umm.. No, never.” I was starting to get more silent. He smiled.

A: “If you wanna do it the right way, you gotta try it. You were the one that wanted to try my lifestyle, after all.” He crossed his arms.

V: “I thought this would be just sex.” He could see my scare through my eyes.
He came closer and stroked my thigh.

A: “No, babygirl, you need to be high for this if you want it to be done the right way. Don’t be scared, I wouldn’t give you something strong.” He reassured me.

V: “Abel, I don’t know…”

A: “It's either that or you go home” He leaned in to take his drink from the table, taking a sip.

I looked outside the window as I was thinking about it. What am I getting myself into? I know this isn’t who I am but how will I know what lifestyle I like and what no if I don’t try it? Yet, it was really dangerous. I was putting my life at risk.

V: “What kind of drugs?” I sighed looking
at him.

A: “MDMA. We'll roll.”
V: “As in ecstasy?”

A: “Yes. Are you down or what?” He looked at me.

V: “You said you would go easy on me. Ecstasy sounds really dangerous.” I was scared.

A: “MDMA is what’s going to help you get in the mood tho, if I gave you just weed, we would be too bored to do anything. Ecstasy gets you hyped.”

V: “How can I trust you?”

A: “I could have easily taken advantage of you that night that you were drunk but I didn’t. I don’t do such things, I ain’t that damaged.”

That made me trust him even more. He indeed didn’t make a move on me the night we met and even though I didn’t remember anything, I woke up fully clothed.

V: “Are you sure you know what you’re giving me?”

A: “Yes, Valerie. If you wanna have sex with me, you gotta do it. I can’t be the only who is on drugs during sex.”

V: “Fiiinee, bring the pills.” I was feeling scared and anxious.

With a smirk on his face, Abel got up to get the drugs. I looked around to get my mind off of what I was about to do. There were cigarettes and lighters on the coffee table and empty Bacardi bottles. The room was also smelling like alcohol and weed. How much does he drink?

My thoughts were cut off by Abel coming back from his room with a glass of water.

A: “Open your hand”

I did as I was told. He gave me a white tablet, I guess it was the MDMA.

A: “Put it in your mouth and swallow it by drinking water, it’s like taking a pill.”
He gave me the glass.

V: “No shit Sherlock.”

I kept looking at the tablet with hesitation. Maybe this is a huge mistake, think straight Valerie.

A: “Don’t be scared. I'm right here.” He sat next to me.

It was like I was under his spell or something. His dark brown eyes looking into mine and I would die for him. Just a touch and he sends me up in the sky. It was something about him that I couldn’t say no to him, I wanted him to crave me and want me, even if that means taking drugs. So, without thinking it twice, I took the pill and sat back. He had a satisfied look.