Valerie || The Weeknd

Lonely Star

Valerie:

As usual, I woke up in Abel's bed, after a long night of getting high and having sex. He made me feel better about all the things that happened last night.

After showering and finishing with my morning routine, I went inside to find Abel with his whole crew.

We all exchanged good mornings as I took my coffee from the breakfast table. They were talking about business, Abel's songs. He was actually releasing one today.

I sat next to him, listening to what they were saying telling them my opinion every now and then. Abel said NY had inspired him to write to write new and dope songs however, he wouldn’t release them until he went back to Canada.

I kept thinking about the future. His future. I could see him being successful, his music was indeed cool. That’s when he would forget about me, tho. He would be even more famous and he would want more bitches, that was something I couldn’t handle. Or was he going to finally date?

Yes, I was still in love with him. I just couldn’t stop, he didn’t seem to care tho, he just wanted to fuck. I wasn’t willing to let down tho. I just had to accept the fact that we would only fuck. It couldn’t be that hard.

Once his friends were gone, I was able to talk to him. I took my cup of coffee and sat on his lap with my arms around his neck.

V: “I wanna talk to you.”

A: “Tell me.”

V: “You know, when you'll become super famous, all you will remember is me. You will go back and think how you started and you will see me. You will fuck bitches but they will remind you of me.” I smiled.

A: “Cocky much?”

V: “I’m just saying” I took a sip of my coffee.

A: “My future doesn’t sound that bad.”

V: “It does for me, I won’t be in it, you will be fucking other bitches.”

A: “I do fuck other bitches now.”

V: “We gotta do something about that, don’t you think?”

A: “I told you, I’m not into relationships. You're my main, isn’t that enough for you?”

V: “Nooope.”

A: “Okay, listen to that. How about we only fuck on Thursdays?”

V: “What do you mean?”

A: “I and you are not allowed to fuck anyone else on Thursdays. Thursdays will be only for us. The rest of the week, we can sleep with anyone we want to.”

V: “That doesn’t sound that bad.”

It didn’t. That would be a great deal, actually. That way we both got what we wanted, he gets to have sex with other hoes and I will only be his. Couldn’t sound more perfect.

A: “You keep worrying too much.” He laughed.

He was being nice to me today. What could have changed? He was never that sweet and friendly before.

V: “Do you want to do anything today? Or do you want me to leave?”

A: “Are you asking me to hang out with you?” He was serious

V: “We agreed on sex with no feelings but that doesn’t mean we can’t hangout, Jesus, stop taking everything so seriously.”

A: “I’m just messing with you.” He laughed.