The Devil's Assassin [Unedited, COMPLETE]

Chapter 43 -Forgiveness

Morgan freeman as god. (couldn't resist lol)

*A/N This chapter contains some views on Christianity. If you disagree with these points that's up to you please don't comment anything rude or disrespectful.
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I am at a lost for words as I pick myself off the ground to see my beautiful rose standing in front of me. She is just a beautiful as I remember her.

"You have created such a mess for yourself roxie. What happened?" She asked bluntly
"Sold my soul to sav..."
"I know what happened to make you into this creature. I meant what happen to cause you so much pain that you rather hide behind this masked you created. The roxie I knew and fell in love with never hid, and wasn't a coward." Emily she stepping toward me.

"I am not a coward Emily. If I stop blocking my angel it will combine with the rest of my hybrid self. It was only make me weak. I was weak once and I lost you I wont let that happen again."
"Cut the bull rox. You know being angel will force you to face your sins which you are more then happy to do. What scares you most about becoming an angel is forgiveness." Emily eyes begin to show tears. I swallow the lump in my throat.

"Forgiveness isnt something I deserve. Rose." I say unable to think of anything else.
"You have already been forgive by me, your misfits, your family, zander and you have been forgiven by god. The only one who has yet to forgive you is yourself."

"I dont deserve forgiveness especially my own. Everything that has happened is because of me. You died because If I was stronger that night we would be free and I would not of became a monster, I wouldn't of killed more then 500 people, I wouldn't of abandon yelena. The list goes on of all the trouble and pain I have caused. I'm better off this way, where my feeling are nonexistent and i have no restrictions."

"My Thorn you feel all this pain and anger that you don't have to face alone. You think you have to save everyone but that was never your destiny. By bringing your angel forward and letting god take away you fears, pain and anger then you will be able to focus on your family and yourself. By leaning on god you will only be stronger."  

"Your kidding rose. Like god would care about someone like me. A part of me is literally the thing that he hates most. Say I do what you say and bring my angel forward He isn't going to love a demon. Even by some miracle he does I don't deserve it."

Emily sighed then came closer to me grabbing my hand, she had tears running down her face. " Thorn you are the most deserving person I know. You have sacrificed your freedom, your soul and  your happiness to protect your family. You need to see what will happen if you don't bring your angel forward and let god love you. Only god can show you what you need to see" she said giving me a tight hug then let go push me toward large white door that I didn't notice until now. 

I turn to tell Emily there is no way I'm going in there but she is gone. I take a deep breath both to gain courage and to keep me from crying. I puff out in frustration all these emotion I have been experience here in heaven isn't something I am used to.  I push the large doors opening them to a blinding light. I cover my eyes  to shield them from the light until they adjust. when I uncover my eye I see a man wear all white tux he had dark skin gray hair and the purest of eyes sitting at a desk, not what I expected well to be honest I have no clue what to expect. 

" Roxie Mary Black or should I call you by your married name king. You are protect to those you love even if it mean selling your soul to protect them. However you are ruthless to those who betray you or loved ones. You believe everything that happened is somehow your fault and your biggest fear is losing the ones you love because of what you become." he stops and looks at me while I fight feeling I didn't know I had anymore. " shall I can continue" god adds while he stares deep in to eyes.