Why?
Why didn't I just listen to him?
Why was I so stupid to think I could do all this?
A week passed, but I still couldn't leave bed. My stupidity lead to the worst thing possible.
Miscarriage.
Why did I think I could still work? I knew my health wasn't the best. Johnny told me to take some time off. Even mother asked if she should fly over from Chicago to help out.
But no. I declined all that, thinking I could do it. And I was stupid to think I could.
Now, I am again the biggest dissapointment to everyone. My parents were right. I am a useless person.
And someone like me, has no reason to live on...
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"Well, good news is you brought her at a good time. Any later, and saving her would have been difficult if not impossible."
"Thank you so much doctor. I'll stay the night with her."
I can't believe it. After everything we've talked about, after all the love I showered on her, after all the help and support she received, she still tried to take her life.
Why Yoojin? What went wrong?
Maybe it was the miscarriage. But taking her life over that seemed too extreme.
When she lost the baby, yes, I was upset. I've always wanted to be a dad, it's a dream of mine right now. But it was still early, at two months, so I didn't take it too badly. I knew it would only upset her even more if I took it to heart too much.
But what made her do this? What made her cause herself to end up in hospital?
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Fanfiction(under reconstruction) Yoojin wrote, every week, at the same time, She wrote about everything, But she never expected anyone to read, Especially the person, or people, her writings directed to, The ones who were the only cause of her smile and laugh...
