We came home after four days. Everyone visited on the second day, and I also had a talk with the agency. Turns out the assistant "part time" manager was the same person who bullied Yoojin back then, and she's been fired. Thank God, I'll never tell her about that, it's better this way.
I got two weeks off too. Since we're preparing for the repackage, I finished everything beforehand so I wouldn't delay anything.
It's been four days and I can't stop looking at Yoonseo as if he's just born again. And I could tell Johnny felt the same, he wouldn't even leave his side for a second (unless going to the washroom). He's sometimes even selfish and won't let me hold him, and just hold both of us together and lay down in bed.
"Johnny I need to feed him."
"Can't you feed him from my arms?"
She blushed so hard while her face was in shock, I almost fell from laughing. But I controlled myself since I'm holding the baby.
"Oh God Youngho just give her the child already! What kind of nonsense are you saying?"
I laughed as his mum hit his back, and he pouted passing Yoonseo to me. I took him into our room and sat facing away from the door. I covered a thin blanket over him as I breastfed him, only keeping a slight slit so I could see him.
He's so adorable. Everytime I look at him I felt like crying, I've never felt this happy before. I suddenly felt arms wrap around me, the blanket fell off slightly exposing my chest. I quickly grabbed it with one hand, and looked back to see Johnny's head on my shoulder.
"What are you doing? The blanket almost fell off."
I chuckled at her blushed face and kissed her cheek. "It's just me in here Yoojin, nothing to hide."
I looked down and moved the blanket away again to see Yoonseo as she fed him. "He's got your eyes."
"And your face."
He smiled and sat behind me with his legs going around me, locking me in them. He hugged over my arms as I held Yoonseo, and just stayed like that while I fed him the whole time.
"Is it OK is the guys come today? They really wanted to see him again, and actually get to hold him."
"All... All twenty of them?"
He laughed at me and kissed my temple. "I'll make it separate. How about five per day, so for four days they'll come. How's that?"
"OK, that seems fine."
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Taeyong, Jisung, Taeil, Haechan and Ten came today. Taeyong even brought groceries because he wanted to cook for everyone.
"Can you manage? Do you need help?"
"It's fine Yoojin. I cook all the time. You shouldn't be doing any work now, go go, shoo."
"You're shooing me out of my own kitchen?"
He pushed me out and went back inside. I sighed and simply left him, seeing that Taeil already came to help him, so I went to the living room to see the others.
"Oh... How do I... Wait no not yet!"
I looked to see Ten trying to get Jisung to hold Yoonseo, but he kept backing away scared. I laughed and took him myself.
"Sit on the couch and hold up your arms. I'll place him in, just support his head and butt."
Jisung's hands kept shaking, but once he held Yoonseo he froze completely. Slowly he relaxed and Haechan started to laugh as he took pictures.
"Aww our baby is holding another baby!"
Ten and Haechan chanted.
"What is he's a future member too? That would be so cool!" - Haechan
Haechan's words made Johnny cough, and we looked to see him purse his lips.
"What's wrong? You don't seem to like my idea do you..." - Haechan
Johnny shrugged and sighed before he sat next to Jisung and pet Yoonseo's head.
"He can do whatever he want, whatever his dream and passion is. But to be an idol, I wouldn't encourage it myself."
"Why not?" - Ten
"I mean, look at us. It's hard isn't it. I mean, we love it, but it came with a price to pay. I don't want my kids to go through the same pain and pressure as we did ourselves. It's not bad, but I just don't want him to."
Ten nodded as I finished talking, seems like he thought the same.
"You're right. Don't feel bad saying this. We are happy, but we went though and gave a lot to be this happy, when other people find it in an easier way. Hey, if Yoonseo wants to be a barista, he should!"
"Even a doctor!" - Haechan
"No no, football player!" - Jisung
"Jisung even you suck at football." - Haechan
"No I don't!"
I chuckled at them and took the baby as Jisung and Haechan bickered, then looked at Johnny. What he said touched my heart. I never knew he felt this way about his life. Everyone looks at them and their glamorous lives, but it's true that they had to give up a lot.
Living away from family, having a normal childhood, field trips, making friends. They lost a lot of things. But they're happy, and gained their own small family too.
And that's what keeps them going.
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Hayran Kurgu(under reconstruction) Yoojin wrote, every week, at the same time, She wrote about everything, But she never expected anyone to read, Especially the person, or people, her writings directed to, The ones who were the only cause of her smile and laugh...
