This time, I agreed to have mother over to help out, I took a month off, and I asked for reduced work hours. The last was Johnny's idea, though I was scared about the salary part, but he assured me it wasn't a big deal.
I'm already at four months, and only people at the agency know, including NCT, WayV and Red Velvet, also the rookie girls I know. Sometimes the Dreamies would come over and insist on helping out. I was confused at first on how, but turns out...
Jaemin and Renjun can cook
Chenle and Jisung help me around
And Jeno cleans up after everyone
Mother even jokes that she should just go back to Chicago sometimes since the others almost always around.
Today everybody went out. Mother went out with some friends/family, while everyone else had schedules. WayV members wanted to come, but I told them it's best they practice for their comeback instead. I didn't want to be a burden.
I laid on the couch, which was an L shaped one, and read a book. I couldn't help get tired, and fell asleep.
The house was so quiet, but I laughed seeing her asleep, with the book open on her tummy. I bookmarked it and put it aside, then sat next to her. She was laying upright, so I laid my head on her lap, pressing my ear onto her tummy.
"Hi baby. It's your daddy here. I hope your growing well. I'm sorry I can't always be around. Daddy's super busy being an idol. But it's upsetting really. I wish I could spend more time with your mummy. I miss her a lot during work. I wish there was a way for me to come home at the same time as other people, and spend the rest of the day with her. I love being an idol, but sometimes I wish I was a normal person too..."
I held back from crying as I felt him caress my tummy. I never knew he really felt this way. I was always opening up to him, but I realised I never gave him an ear to listen to as he did to me. I opened my eyes slightly, and saw him smiling at my tummy while caressing it. He didn't know I was awake now, so I gently combed his hair.
He looked at me, and smiled again.
"How long have you been awake?"
"Uhm... Just now..."
I didn't want him to know I overheard it, but I wanted to at the same time. He got up and laid beside me, holding me to himself. I hugged him around his torso and sniffed his shirt. I loved his natural scent, especially on his shirts. Whenever he's gone for a while, I always hug one to sleep.
He suddenly kissed my head.
"I know you heard all that baby. It's OK. And don't feel burdened in any way by what I say, got it? I don't like it."
I pursed my lips and hugged him tighter. It's time I listen.
"Johnny, what will your fans think? I mean, I know you don't care, but aren't you scared it will tarnish your reputation?"
He continued to stroke my hair.
"Sometimes. But I know they're supportive. And I'm sure people would love for me to be a dad."
He chuckled and we looked at each other. We smiled at each other and continued to cuddle, his hand slipped under my shirt caressing my tummy.
"Always talk to me Johnny. Please."
"OK baby."
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Fanfiction(under reconstruction) Yoojin wrote, every week, at the same time, She wrote about everything, But she never expected anyone to read, Especially the person, or people, her writings directed to, The ones who were the only cause of her smile and laugh...
