What If...

Strange...

[Sophomore Year, College]

During this year, I found out some strange and interesting things. I felt like this year was going to be really different. I got to go home to the Philippines for winter break and got to see a lot of my family, I was so happy being back home! I didn't have a crush on anyone during the first half of the year, which was okay, but it got kind of boring.

I've had a few dreams of Jax and one of them included my ex and Jax. In the dream, I was at school and they were there. I was surprised to see Jax there because I haven't seen him in a long time and I tried to be nice to them, but they both ended up being rude to me. When I woke up, I realized that that is what they really are like, I've always been thinking about the good things about them that I totally ignored all the awful things. I felt like I was going to finally get over Jax. But sadly, I didn't

When we got back from break, I had a guy in my class that I didn't like since last year. I first saw him in a summer class, entering Freshman year and I knew he was an annoying and flirty guy. When I had him in one of my classes last year, he was exactly that, annoying and flirty. But one day, last year, a moment that I will never forget was that he seemed really upset, usually hes joking around and talkative, but he wasnt that day. I didnt say anything because I wasnt close to him. Coming back from my trip, I saw his Instagram and followed him, wondering if he was going to follow back or if it was just weird to him. One time after school, he said that he was going to be moving soon and for some reason, something changed about me when we talked. After that, he would give me high fives and hugs. He would mess around with me in class and he would hum or sing parts of the songs from La La Land. I was listening to music, when the song that he had been singing came on, so I screenshot it and sent it to him. This started the friendship that I hoped to have with him and we were talking for a while after that. Sadly, he has a girlfriend, so I couldn't really do anything.

In February, I noticed a familiar date while looking at my calendar. It was Friday, February 24th. A few years ago, that was when my ex- boyfriend and I got together on the same day, Friday. It's weird that I remember, I just remember a lot of dates even if I don't want to.

Anyways, I can't believe I started liking this guy in my class. Since the first time I saw him, I told myself that I would never like him because of the whole Jax thing. But it was too late, I started liking him. As I started getting to know him, he was different than he was in class, being more calm and friendly.

On the last week of school, to keep a little of me and Claires tradition going, I made the paper yearbook for some of my friends to sign. I got him to sign mine and he took up a WHOLE page! It was sweet and cute.