[6 days later]
Well since he isn't gonna be texting me anymore, I'm just curious how he would describe what we've been through all these years.
Me: Hey, quick random question
Jax: What's up..?
Me: In a few words or sentences. Describe what we have been through all these years. Be as honest as you want.
Jax: Well we've been through a lot...like...idk... I wasn't the best person but you still liked me
Me: True
Jax: I honestly think what I put you through was a bunch of bull and I wish I could make up for it
Me: It's ok, in the past yeah, you did. But I already told you I had to go through an even more hurtful heartbreak after you, so it's ok now. You can make it up, but how?
Jax: I really don't know... What do you want?
Me: Honestly, I just want us to be okay. For now let's just be friends & if anything more happens, than it happens.
Jax: That sounds nice
Me: You're okay with that, right?
Jax: Of course
Then I ask him how he's been
Jax: Aha... not really good
Me: Why not?
Jax: Just a bunch of issues I don't want to even bother you with them
Me: You're not gonna be bothering me, if you want to say it, feel free to :)
Jax: Aha it's just dumb...
{Well doesn't that line sound awfully familiar...}
Me: No, it's not, just tell me if it makes you feel better
{And my usual response, because I'm not gonna argue with him}
Jax: Can I be really honest...
Me: Yeah
He doesn't respond to that so I have to text him the next day because I'm not dealing with anymore BS!
[Next day]
Me: What did you need to be honest about?
Jax: It's just about my ex... I thought I was over her but... no...
{HAHAHAH well I'm not surprised that this is happening, but at least he's honest about it}
Me: Hmm ok, well that usually happens a lot, it's hard to get over an ex
Jax: Yeah... sorry
Me: Why are you sorry?
He doesn't respond to that, so I decided to say
Me: I guess we both tried to distract ourselves from what was really hurting us
{Because it's true, I only contacted him because I was trying to distract myself from the hurt I was still feeling from that other guy and I knew one way or another that Jax was gonna try to do a similar thing as usual.}
Jax: Exactly... I'm sorry...
Me: Why are you sorry if we both did it
Jax: Still. I mean it could have been worse but yes I understand
Me: Yeah it could've been A LOT worse, but I'm happy nothing too much happened lol we would've regretted it
Jax: I mean... I wouldn't have because... I meant everything I said. I do like you
{Well there goes his last of his familiar lines}
Me: I meant if it went any further than that & we were still worrying about the past from another person, that would've been messed for the both of us
Jax: Yes exactly
Me: Yeah, so I'm just good with being friends or acquaintances with you, whichever you're okay with
Jax: Yeah that's cool
{Well, I need to say my goodbye now}
Me: Okay, well until maybe next time! Good luck with everything! & don't forget that I believe you can still achieve all the things that you want to do! Be safe & don't go breaking anymore hearts 😂
Jax: Aha thank you, you too!!
Me: I'm always here if you need anything :)
Well, that's finally the end of a chapter or even a story ;) of my life. I'm really happy that we have ended things on a good note instead of in a fight, things left unsaid or blocking each other. I feel so much better.
As Selena Gomez's song "Lose You To Love Me" says "And now the chapter is closed and done...And now it's goodbye, it's goodbye for us"
Thank you, Jax, for being part of my life and teaching me many things about relationships and about myself. Thank you for being one of the realizations of my growth.
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//Author's Note//
Thank you to everyone that has read and supported this story for all these years! As many of you know already, this is a story based on my real life. The very beginning of this story is definitely cringy because it was a time when I was very young. So young times come with cringy times. HAHAHA! Some of you might have shaken your heads at the number of times I've gone back to real-life Jax and I promise you, I shake my head every time as well lol! But this time is really the last time. I am really hoping that my future is only forward from here, I won't be trying to go back to Jax anymore.
Thank you all again! I really appreciate you all! Especially because of 1k reads! I never imagined that I would ever get 1k reads! I've worked so hard for so many with this story and I'm just so happy and proud! Hopefully, you all can support me on my future stories and please give me any feedback to improve my writing!
Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! <3
~ little_yzabel13
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