[July 11]
It is the night before my birthday and I can't sleep at all! I don't know if I'm just excited for tomorrow because I'm going to the Shawn Mendes concert with my friend or maybe because I've been feeling really depressed lately that I can't seem to sleep. My mind won't stop thinking of things. I started to feel really depressed and I started crying. I thought of my life so far and the things Ive gone through. One of the things that I thought of was how much I missed Claire so much! She is the best thing that has ever happened to my life so far. Another thing that I thought of is Jax and how much I wanted this pain to just end already. I started praying and begging to God to just end this pain from Jax and possibly give me the answers that I've been wanting for all these years. I stayed up so late because my mind wouldn't stop racing, I ended up sleeping at 7 in the morning. I only slept for three and a half hours when my parents walked into the room with a present in my mom's hands and my dad recording the whole thing. I was tired, but I tried to not let it show. I just forgot everything that happened just a few hours ago and decided to go on with my special day.
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