when my love stops

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at the same moment
Y/N P.O.V

I was frustrated, it was like someone ripped my heart of. It felt like as if the air had been taken away from me to breath. He didn't say anything, didn't try to stop me from going away.

I went into the living room, laid down on the sofa. Everything I wanted is to sleep, forget what happened. Tears were running down my cheeks, I couldn't hold it back.

I stared out of the window, admired the bright shining stars at the sky. They were so beautiful, radiated so much strengh. And me?

I am not shining as bright as them, I am not strong enough. I lost everything I had. My love to Jungkook is slowly fading away and I am slowly loosing myself.

My eyes were fluttering, I got tired due to all the tears I shed because of him. I got tired of my life, my love, myself. I got tired of everything around me. I just wanted to turn of the world around me... and then, I slowly fell asleep.

Jungkook P.O.V

I suddenly realized what was happening. Everything about this argument was my fault. I stared at the door, I couldn't move. It's like I lost the most important thing in my life. She is the source of my joy, the center of my world and the whole of my heart. And now she left... she is gone.

I wasn't able to sit here, thinking about what happened. So I decided to go out, get my head clear. I got up and walked out of the room, my body felt so weak. I felt like if all my strength had been withdrawn from me.

I walked to the front door, passing the living room. I overheard Y/N's little sobs from the sofa. Tears started to form in my eyes, I hurted her so much.

I took my keys and went out of the apartment, which Y/N and me shared together. It was winter what meant it is snowing on the outside. So I took an jacket on because it's very cold.

I stopped in front of our door when I saw too little kids playing in the garden, building a snowman. They looked so happy and smiled the whole time, it remembered me at Y/N and me when we were younger.

flashback ; childhood {7 y.o.}
A/N P.O.V

Little Jungkook and Y/N were walking home from school, tomorrow is christmas. Jungkook accompanied Y/N everyday when she walks home, they're neighbors.

"Kookie, do you have a wish from Santa Claus?"
Y/N was jumping around, she was so excited about christmas. Since 4 years it is the first time that her whole family visit.

"Haha, you still believe in Santa Claus, Y/N-ah" Jungkook giggled a little bit, wanted to walk in your garden. But Y/N suddenly stopped, her cute smile faded away.

He was confused and turned around to face a little pouting Y/N crossing her arms infront of her chest.

He felt bad because of his words but then his thoughts got interrupted. Y/N throwed a big snowball in his face.

Shooked from her sudden act, he got on his knees. But then an idea shoot in his head. He decided to pretend like he got hurt and made noises of crying.

Y/N's laugh faded away and she quickly ran over to him, kneeled down infront of him.

"N-no Kookie, I-I am sorry." she stuttert, put her hand on his cheek and wiped the snow of his face. He looked up to her and began to laugh out loud.

"You are so sweet Y/N." they laughed a lttle bit and played with the snow until they were wet on the whole body. So they decided to go home, because they don't wanted to get ill.

They stood up and walked infront of Y/N's doorstep. She wanted to open the door to get in but then Jungkook held her by the wrist.
"B-but Y/N, I have a wish for chistmas.." he was stuttering, looked at the side because of his shyness.

She turned around and smiled at him, she wanted to encourage him.

"Yeah?" she said sweetly, she knows that Jungkook likes that.

He finally looked down at her, looked her eyes with his.
"I want to marry you." He blurt out all of a sudden. Y/N was a little bit shooked but eventually smiled at his desire.

She got one step closer and hugged him tightly.
"Oh little Kookie, ask me again when we are older.." she mumbled and placed a little kiss on his cheek. He blushed of her sudden act and nodded.

"Bye Kookie, see you tomorrow." Then she got into the house, little Jungkook stood there alone. Smiling, he turned around and went home proudly...

flashback end ; present

Jungkook P.O.V

He viewed the two kids, throwing snowballs at each other. He wished, that he could travel back in time and make every of his fault undone. But sadly he can't, he has to live with it.

The little boy looked at Jungkook, smiled brightly.

"Take good care of her, she is a sweetheart."
Jungkook shouted across the street, pointed at the little girl besides him.

The boy nodded and took the tiny hand of the girl.

"I will, always." he said, looking at his friend who was shooked about his sudden act. She giggled and pecked his cheek. The two kids waved at Jungkook and ran into the house.

Jungkook smiled, but suddenly a tear ran down his cheek. The two reminded him on the old time, the good times. And it made him sad, he knows that he is slowly loosing Y/N. Everyday he breaks her heart more and more...

..sequel follows..