when my love stops

.11.

A/N P.O.V.

A warm feeling on your skin woke you up early in the morning. The sun's rays shine through the curtains right in your face. Small dust grains are visible, they fly slowly through the air.

Carefully, you open your eyes, stretching yourself to wake up slowly. Your view is still blinded, so you do not realize that you are in your and Jungkook's bed.

You lay the thick blanket off your body and sit up with a swing. Surprisingly, you feel good.

You rub your eyes to get your full view again when you realize that this is not your sister's home.

"Fuck." You curse, remember the last night. However, you can not remember putting yourself in this bed.

Jungkook.

Slowly you let your gaze wander through the room, look at the other half of the bed.

The blanket is unused, lies folded next to you.

Jungkook did not sleep here.

He did not want it, knew you would resent it.

But right now you want the opposite. Because you miss his closeness. Miss his little touches on your skin, which let your heart beat faster.

And Jungkook misses you. Your tender kisses after coming home from work. Your lovingly prepared meal for him after the hard day.

But you have finally given up on both of you.
Have dropped each other.
You caused, that the greatest fear of each other will leave reality.

You feel the void without him in you.
He feels the same.
You are like a heart and a soul.
One needs the other to survive.
Are you not, you do not even exist.

You sigh loudly, drop your head back.

You have to talk to him, you know that you have no choice.
Your feelings are to big for him.

You get up to put on a sweater and sweatpants.

But for your luck, none of your sweaters are there, so you decide to choose one from Jungkook.

When you slip into the big sweater, you felt very warm around your heart.

You quietly pat yourself to the door to go to the kitchen, you want to make a coffee.

But when you open the door, you see him sitting on the floor. His feet are pulled to his chest and his head leans against the door frame.

'Sweet' do you think, you can not resist a small smile.

You quietly climb over him, continue on your way to the kitchen without awakening him.

You prepare a coffee, finally went to Jungkook to give him this.

Carefully you tap his shoulder, want to wake him up gently.

"Get up sleepyhead," you whisper, stroking his hair out of his face and lay your hand in his.

You want to cross your fingers with his, but as you feel your touch against him, you pull your hand away quickly.

He hums up softly, opens his eyes to experience a shock.

You are still there...

He smiles gently at you, looks at your hand holding the cup.

Quickly you realize what you wanted to do.
"Here for you," you say curtly, giving him the coffee.

He reaches for it, puts his hand around the cup as your fingers touch.

You quickly gasp, you feel how your heartbeat changes.
It's like on your first date when you were even younger.

Exciting and yet beautiful.

Slowly you get up from your squat, return to go to the living room.

But Jungkook stops you shortly, looks frightened in your face.
"Are you going again?" He stammered, his eyes forming little tears.

But you just smile at him, shake your head. "Never." You say, continue on your way.

You sit down on the couch again, looking around in your old home. Your gaze stops at the window, you can see it's starting to snow outside.

A small smile forms on your lips, as a child you love to play in the snow.

You always loved winter, it was your absolute favorite season.

Every year, Jungkook and you take a trip to the winter market.

It was an old tradition of you. You dine together and eat gingerbread to enjoy the nights.

Often you skated, but Jungkook was not very enthusiastic about it.
You often had to laugh as he fell on the ice.

For Christmas you have always had a nice evening together, you did not need any presents to be happy.

Your love was gift enough.

Your smile was bigger than you thought. Your problems are gone for a moment.

The next moment you feel how the couch lowers next to you. Jungkook has sat down next to you.

His gaze is directed in your direction, he knows what you are thinking about and must also grin slightly.

He loved to see you so happy in the winter time.

You turn your head to him, patterning his expression. But his sweet smile disappears sofer, he lets his head down.

You put two fingers under his chin, let him look at you again.

But he is still sad, does not want to look at you.

"Y/N I'm so sorry ..." but you stop him, put your index finger on his lips.

He opens his eyes in shock. But you still smile at him warmly, do not let you be distracted by his reaction.

Slowly you take your finger away, lean back on his well-built chest.

You feel his fast beating heartbeat, have to smile slightly.

Your head is resting on his shoulder, you are breathing out and relaxing.

"Let us enjoy this little beautiful moment Jungkook. Please." you say, look up into his eyes.

He nods, is just happy about your sudden reaction. "I'd love to."

He answeres.
Opens his heart again for you...

... sequel follows...