when my love stops

.5.

the next day ; 9 p.m.
Y/N P.O.V

I have just come home from work when I opened the door to our apartment. I hoped to see him when I got home, but like every time I was disappointed in a new one.

Yesterday he left me there crying in the living room, when suddenly Yumi, my sister, came. Jungkook doesn't know anything about my family, that's better anyways. She was there for me when I couldn't help myself. I'm so thankful to have her. She would never do something bad to me.
You thought..

I put the keys on the dresser, took off my shoes. I threw the shoes into the corner and went into the living room. It was so empty, so lonely. I looked out of the big window, watching the little stars on the horizon.

I used to enjoy the silence when I came home, but now it only scares me. It scares me to be alone every day. The fear of drowning in this silence, of losing myself.

But maybe I already have it.
Maybe I lost myself already.
What if it is too late?
What if I lost myself because of him?

I dropped onto the couch, sighing loudly. More often, these thoughts went through my head. I often thought of giving up. I wanted to give him up, give me up. I wanted to let go...

Suddenly the front door opened ... Jungkook.
Quickly my eyes shot to him, a tear ran down my cheek. His eyes were lost, the twinkle in his eyes went out. The sparkle that I loved so much. But now there is nothing left to see.

His eyes were bloodshot, he had been crying. I turned my eyes away from him again, did not want to faint.

I heard the jingles of the keys and soft footsteps approaching me. I pressed my lips together, trying to suppress the tears.

I had lowered my head down when I felt the couch next to me sink.

Jungkook sat down next to me, placing his hand on my shoulder. I jerked back briefly, feeling uncomfortable. He sighed and took his hand away.

"Y / N please ... I-"

But I interrupted him:
"What Jungkook?"

Quickly my head shot up, I looked deep into his eyes. Tears formed and everything began to blur.

"I am sorry."

A tear dripped from my face, fell on the back of his hand. For a short moment I was speechless, didn't know how to answer. But then everything burst out of me, all my anger and sadness.

"You are sorry? for real? Because if you were sorry, you would not have left me alone and crying in the living room, with a broken heart, and destroyed make-up. No, you would have come to me and hugged me. Instead, you have gone as you do every time. If I would really mean something to you, you would never have done this to me. But, you know what? You have. And you do not get to say sorry, so you can feel better about yourself, not this time. You left me there, to pick myself up. But I couldn't. And then, when someone else came along, and picked up my broken pieces, you're sorry? No, it's to late Jungkook."

My face was overflowing with tears, it hurt too much. I got to my feet, glared at him, and waited for a response. With the back of my hand I wiped the tears from my cheeks, turned my eyes away from him and looked out the window. I let out a deep breath, lowered my head.

"I need time for me ... a break from you ... us."

His head shot up, fear was written in his face. Was that it, is she finally getting rid of him?

"Y-You want to break up with me?" Tears formed in his eyes, his heart tightened.

I sighed and turned to face him. His sight hurt my heart, never before have I seen him so shaken.

"No Jungkook, I just want to think about everything. I will move to my sister Yumi for a few days. Please do not make it any harder for me than it already is. "

"Y-Yumi?" He stammered, his hands shaking.

But he did not realize that I was already at our front door, he was too shocked.

"Goodbye Jungkook."
With that I left the apartment, and him alone as he always did.

"But Y / N .." but he noticed that I was long gone, the door was closed behind me. He let himself fall back on the couch, sighed out loud...

Sometimes we do things we didn't want to do. And sometimes we notice our mistakes too late. Sometimes we do not see what pain we cause on others with our actions. And sometimes we add the biggest pain to ourselves, with that...

..sequel follows..