when my love stops

.6.

A/N P.O.V

Jungkook was laying on the couch, tears were running down his face. He was mad about himself. He hates himself to cause all this problems, to make you slowly leave him.

Then suddenly he remembered something. Jungkook opened his jacket, sighed out quietly. There was something he forgot..
He reached into his inner jacket pocket and slowly pulled out a red rose and a small picture.

A small tear formed in his eye as he took a closer look at the picture. He always carried this picture with him as a souvenir of Y/N and him, the picture was taken at their graduation. That day, he confessed his love, told her what he felt for her.

Both looked so happy that day, neither of them was so happy for a long time. Y/N and Jungkook have lost sight of each other for the last few months. They have distanced themselves more and more from each other, because of him. He never took any time for her, always left her on the left side.

Was that his thanks to her? Thanks to all the nice years they spent together.

He put the picture aside and picked up the rose he was about to give Y / N as an apology.
He gently put her in the vase on the couch table, watching her in the moonlight. The rose reminded him of Y/N, so beautiful and yet so fragile.

He let out a deep breath, ran his thumb over the petals.

"I love you Y / N." he mumbled to himself ...

meanwhile ; Y/N

She was walking through the streets, sobbing quietly. Y/N knew it was the right decision to leave the apartment for a few days. She has to think about everything. To let him go would hurt her so much, but what if it is the right? What if he is already thinking of leaving you?

Y/N shook her head, wanted to drive the thoughts out of her mind. Then suddenly someone appeared in front of her, Yumi. A little smile formed on Y/N's lips, she felt relieved.

Yumi P.O.V

I took her in my arms, stroking her head. Little sobs came from her and I tried to calm her down.
I wanted to tell Y/N about the guy I met in the bar, but she's so broken. I have to be there for her, hold her hand and help her out of her problems..

Y/N P.O.V

Yumi and me walked to her apartment. I am so happy to have her as my bigger sister, she means so much to me.

I was sitting on a chair at the dining room, Yumi said she would make me something to eat. I realized that I didn't eat anything the whole day because of the stress at my work.

After a few minutes she came out of the kitchen with some pancakes, my favorite food. I thanked her and began to eat.

„Y/N... what happened between you and your husband?" she suddenly bursted out. I laid my cutlery aside, raised my head. She looked empathic at me and a little tear ran down my cheek.

„I-Its just..." I sighed out loudly. „ I feel like he doesn't love me anymore.."

„But what about you? Do you still love him like you did on the first day?"

I was shocked at her question, I didn't think about this any time. „O-Of course I do."

I was stuttering, honestly I wasn't sure about it.
He hurt me so many times... I can't feel any of his love.

Yumi shoke her head, and laid her hand on mine. A little tear from me dropped on it.

„For me, it sounds like you don't know what you feel." she smiled at me empathic, she know she's right.
And you also know it, but you want to hold on..

You looked down at your plate, more tears were streaming down your cheeks. You don't wanted to believe it. No, it would hurt you so much to leave him. He means everything to you, without him you're nothing.
Without him, everything around you would collapse...
„But I don't know what to do.."

„Y/N, he may still love you. He probably does. He probably doesn't know what he wants. He probably thinks about you all the time. But that isn't what matters. What matters is what he's doing about it, and what he is doing about it is nothing. And if he is doing nothing, you most certainly shouldn't do anything either. You need someone who goes out of their way to make it obvious that they want you in their life. Please
Y/N, think carefully about what works best for you." with that she stood up and took the plate into the kitchen to wash it up. Her words caused me to think about it. What if she is right?
What if I should move on?

But I love him recklessly. He means the world to me and it would break my heart into a million pieces, if I would let go of him. No, I'm not able to do this..

But what if you have to? What if your heart can't resist it anymore? Every pain he caused you, cost you another tear. The most of the day you spent crying because of him. But guess what? You still love him, instead of hating him for all the pain he causes you. You wanted to hate him so badly, but you can't forget about all the times he made you feel as if you were made of sunshine. Shitty, right?

What I want to say is,...love means pain.

..sequel follows..